New YeaR Wish ...

Today is the last day of the 2009 ... In this year , there are some good and bad thing happened in my life .... Some of them make me happy and some of them make me feel hurt when u recall them ..... However , all these things will be pass with the gone of the 2009 ....

In this new year 2010 , i have a lots of thing need to be done .... they are :

1. have a good result for the following semester .
2. have nice memory for the whole 2010 .
3. have a good body , i hate sick .
4. all my friends can happy forever ...
5. can make a lots new friends in the next year .

Bye bye 2009 , welcome 2010 ...

MOon oR SuN ...

As Usual , Sun is a star which can produce light by using hydrogen gas .... However , Moon just is a planet which can reflect the sunlight to make it bright in front of our eyes .... Hence , we can say that if the sun disappear from our view , then we sure can't see the moon anymore .....

The relationship between the Sun and the moon can be applied on the human relationship . We can't deny that some of us cant survive without the help from other people just like the moon need the sunlight . At the same time , we still can notice that there is a kind of people who always help people without asking any payback from others just like the Sun we have ...

So , what kind of personality you have now ? In my case , i think that i am the Earth planet that cant live without the Sun and the Moon ... I need the sunlight to make my life brighter .... I need the moonlight to guide me a way when i fall into darkness .... On the other hand , the Sun can give me all the wonderful things in my life just like it gives life to the Earth . And the Moon can accompany me when i am alone .....

Hence , i hope that i can be the Perfect Earth rather than this ugly Earth we have .....

无奈

人的无奈到底是从哪里滋生的？

是人的能力不足？

是人的期望太高？

是人的欲望太大？

有或者是人的无知？

我想这些答案往往只是真实答案的一部分。。。。

因为人是可以为了一些无厘头的原因而做出一些让人无法想象的事情来的。。。。。

所以，

我的无奈是因为什么呢?

而你的又会因为什么呢？

我们会得到同样的原因吗？

真是让人期待。。。。

A New BeGIn ..

At last , my second year second semester of my three years university course is sitting with me , chatting with me or make suffer for me . As usual , this semester is full with all the lectures , lab and tutorial . This make me feel that i am back to hell again . However , what i can do to avoid it from my life . it becomes one of essential things for my future . Without it , my future will full of hardship and problem . So , i need to work hard on it .....

At this moment , i think that i am that kind of people who has the making decision disorder . I cant make a simple decision on the spot .... I really suffer from it . Now , i need to decide whether i want to recheck some of my result ........ It really disaster for me .....

haiH ... at this time , i cant bother so much on it ... i set a deadline for me , that is before next friday , i need have a exact decision on this topic .... i hope i can make it ....

Give up ?

After these few days of thinking and consideration , i think i need to give up something from the deep of my heart in order that i can escaped from the black hole of my life ...

It seem a hard decision for me to make because it stays at my heart for fews years . So , i hope this decision can bring a new Light in my future step ...

Thanks to my friends who help me go through these dark period ...

Thank again ......

Real Or Fake ?

I m A faked Man ?

Do i say some faked words in front of you before ?

Everything i said before is real to my heart ?

Lies are my sincere friend ? Or truths are my enemy ?

想念

最近，
不知道为什么，
我对你的想念好像从我心中的裂缝中慢慢地走出来了。

我知道我这个的行为 ，
对你，对我也不好。

所以，我也没有对这个想念有任何的期望。

希望它有一天可以从我心中消失 ，
但是，
不知道要用多少时间呢？

一天?
一个月？
一年？
十年?
又或者一生一世也不会消失。

希望井

最近， 我去看了一本书。这本书的作者是几米。这本书是我的朋友介绍我看的。虽然我只看了一半而已，可是我对这些句子有很大的启发。。它们就是 ........

“

掉落深井，我大声呼喊，等待救援.............

天黑了，黯然低头，才发现水面满是闪烁的星光。

我总在最深的绝望里，遇见最美丽的惊喜。

"

从这里， 你对这些句子有什么感想呢？

分享一下！！

Shuet Yee"s birthday party ...

Today is my friend , Shuet yee's birthday party ! My friends and i went to her house to celebrate her birthday . We reached there around 830 pm . However , we were late to attend this party due to some personal reason ( it is my problem , not my friend's problem ) .

When we reached there , we saw a lots of people sitting , eating , chatting or drinking beer there . We just late for half an hours , but her house was full of people and noise . Since this problem happen , we need to search a special and quite place for us to sit , to eat and to chat , too . At last , we found it and had our dinner , too .

After that , we had our chatting session , photograph session and drink beer session . We all had a wonderful moment at there because we can meet someone who we don't meet him or her for long time . Thanks to this party ...

At last , i want to wish my friend happy birthday and hope your dream can come true !!

good luck ..........

心酸

走不完的长巷 原来也就那麼长  

跑不完的操场 原来小成这样 

时间的伤 翻云覆雨了什麼 

从我手中 夺走了什麼

闭上眼看 十六岁的夕阳 美得像我们一样 

边走边唱 天真浪漫勇敢 

以为能走到远方  

我们曾相爱 想到就心酸   

人潮拍打上岸 一波波欢快的浪  

校门口老地方 我是等候堤防   

牵你的手 人群里慢慢走  

我们手中 藏有全宇宙   

闭上眼看 最后那颗夕阳 

美得像一个遗憾  辉煌哀伤 

青春兵荒马乱 我们潦草地离散    

明明爱啊 却不懂怎麼办

 让爱强韧不折断   

为何生命 不准等人成长 

就可以修正过往   

我曾拥有你 真叫我心酸 

夜静..

半夜的来临， 到底给你怎样的感觉？

对我而言， 半夜的来临是一个让我自己好好享受生活的机会.......

每当它的到来，都给我带了一丝丝的宁静，一阵阵的凉风，与一种淡淡的花香......

在这些东西的点缀下，仿佛让我感受到平时无法得到的宁静与快乐.......

就是这样， 或者我已经慢慢地爱上了它 .............

就好像爱上了一个不该爱的人...

明知道它是这样的不好，但我还是对它有一种无法释怀的爱慕之心........

明白？

说了那么多， 你真的不明白吗？

你一次次地让我失望与难过！

到底我还要做什么来让你知道？

或者..............

我真的没有办法了 ........

Half Way Gone ...

Since the first day of my exam week until now , i totally took 2 exams paper , that is TDR I , TDR II , Experimental Design and Pengurusan Persatuan . I still left 4 more paperS to sit , that is Biochemistry , Microbial genetics , Biochemistry practical and Computer .

However , i have a lot of activity after the exam . I plan to go Genting , Alor setar , Ipoh , Penang and maybe Singapore or Johor .... This is the energy for me now ....

HAVE FUN AFTER EXAM !!!!!!!!!!!

Heaven OR Hell ?

Tomorrow is the first day of my exam journey . The feeling of mine at this moment is relaxing . I don't know this feeling can happen on me ! Since my result not so good for the last two semesters , i supposed need to work harder and harder compared to other people , no game , no facebook-ing , no animation or no dreaming at there . However , i really feel relaxed on this second . Maybe , i think that i had done all my best to overcome these exam papers or in my deep mind , it says that " no need study hard anymore because you cant change anything although you had done these all things " . I am not sure which of there two thinking is dominating my mind now , but i really sure that i really not think that exam is a HELL to me , it may become a small step to me to enter the HEAVEN . This all things has its own possibility to occur .

For me , i think that i still can handle my own destiny .......

Let's go !!!!!

Tired...

I really feel tired about what had i done for this long time . If everyone i knew asked my help , i will help them with all my strength because they are my friends , my beloved family members or someone that i don't know them . I think that this is a compulsory job for me to do that since they asked for my help .

When i was standard 1 , i seldom get the love or something that relavant with this because i am the elder son in the family. The main role of my duty is to take care my brothers and do my thing in my effort . I still can remember the feeling when no ones will ask my feeling include my own parents because they need to take care their job and my little brothers . They never ask me about anything on me . This is bcause they think that i can handle it well due to i am the elder . At this situation , i can understand them .

However , i still have 1 people that really care on me , that is my grandfather . Every moment that i stay with him , i still recall back although it happenned when i was 5 years old at that time . For example , every time i went to his house , he sure will bring me to buy anything that i want or ask me anything include my academic result , my friend or anything . This make me felt warm and love . I really have a wonderfull memory on that moment . However , when i was standard 6 , my grandfather suddenly passed away .When i knew about it , i started to ask myself about why i don't spend my time with him . Everytime , my mum asked me to go my grandfather's house , i rejected her because i felt bored when i at there . I rather stay at home and play my Play station better than go there . I really hated me because i make a stupid mistake that make me felt regret and guity for my whole life .

After this thing happenned on me , i started to scare to lost anything from me . Hence , i will do all my best to retain my family relation , friendship or others . I started to put me in the second place in my heart , the first place always will be the person who i knew . This action last for about 10 years . I really felt tired and no more deermination to continue it now . I really want to stop it ....... let stop it for now ......

Good bye the old of me !!!!! Welcome the new of me !!!!!!

2012

預言一

馬雅的預言

「地球並非人類所有，人類卻是屬於地球所有！」

根據馬雅以上預言，我們生存的地球，已經是在第５個太陽紀，目前為止， 地球經已經歷了四個太陽紀，而在每一個紀結束的時候， 都會上演一幕又一幕驚心動魄的毀滅劇情。

第一個太陽紀是馬特拉克堤利 MATLACTIL ART，最後被一場洪水所纖滅， 另一個說法就是人所共知挪亞的洪水。

第二個太陽紀就是伊厄科特爾 Ehecatl，被風蛇吹得四散雕零，最後亦走上滅亡之路。

第三個太陽紀是扥雷奎雅維洛 Tleyquiyahuillo，則是因天降火而步向滅絕之路，這就是古代核子戰爭。

第四個太陽紀則是宗德里里克 Tzontlilic，也是被火雨肆虐，引發大地顛覆亦逃不過滅亡。

馬雅預言亦表示，從第一到第四個太陽紀的末期，地球同樣陷入空前大混亂之中，而且往往在一連串慘不忍賭的悲劇下滅亡，在地球滅絕之前，一定會先發出警告， 提醒人類。而馬雅預言的最後一章，大多數是年代的紀錄，而且這些年代紀錄尤如串連好一樣，全部都在第五太陽紀時宣告終結，因此，馬雅預言地球將在第五太陽 紀走向完全滅亡的結局。當第五太陽紀結束時，太陽將會消失，地球發生搖晃的大劇變，根據預言記錄，太陽紀亦只有五個循環，一但太陽經歷過５次死亡，地球便 會毀滅，而第五太陽紀始於紀元３１１３年，歷經馬雅大周期５１２５年後，迎向最終點。以現今西曆對照這個終結日子，將會是西元２０１２年１２月２２日的前 後。

預言二

西藏憎侶的未日預告

能預知未來在西藏寺院裡並不是甚麼新鮮事，幾千年來，它一直是西藏文化的精神活動之一，而最近幾位從西藏寺院歸來的印度遊客，在當地瞭解到的信息，著實使 人震驚及引人入勝。這些遊客說，能預知未來的藏僧看到，目前世界正在進行自我毀滅，但他們同時也看到，世界並不會被毀壞。

西藏僧人說，從現在到2012年間，世界各個超級大國將繼續參與地方戰爭，恐怖主義和隱蔽的戰爭將會是主要問題。2010年左右，世界政治將發生某些變 化，各大國將威脅要互相毀壞。2010年到2012年間，全世界將變得極端化，並且為末日做準備，繁多的政治交涉亦不會有一點進展。2012年，世界將進 入一次全面破壞性的核戰爭，那時有一件卓越的事件將會發生。超自然的神力量將作出干預，所以世界將不會在那時自我毀滅。與此同時，僧人們還表示，2012 年後，人類將會明白，科學和技術最前瞻是在精神靈性區域，而並非物質的物理和化學。此後，技術將轉到另外一個方向發展。人們將學會精神的精華，同時也領悟 到身體與靈魂的關係、也明白輪迴和我們相互之間事實上存在聯繫並都是「上帝」的一部分。

如果以科學解釋僧人的預言，顯然有地球以外的力量在觀察著我們走的每一步，在2012年他們將會出現並拯救世界於自毀。僧人們更表示，在印度和中國發生的 不明飛行物（UFO）事件時，是神正在觀察著我們所有人，人類不能也不會被批准大幅度地改變未來。雖然每個人目前生活中的「業」（Karma）可能在某種 程度上改變其未來的生活，但要大幅度地改變未來是不可能和不被允許的。

在印度和中國，UFO出沒事件增加了好幾倍，許多人認為外星人與中國和印度政府都曾有接觸，近來UFO頻繁活動在那些致力發展核武器的國家上。他們將會以 不使我們驚嚇的形式顯露自己，他們只會在必需的情況下才會顯露自己。隨我們的科學技術進步，我們注定會看到並與他們接觸的。最後，僧侶表示地球是被保佑 的， 我們只是不知道而已，將來大家將意識到外力是如何拯救我們。

預言三

科學家的未日預測

一群地理學家、天體物理學家和電腦科學家聯合進行研究，發現2012年地球和太陽的磁極將同時發生逆轉，而上一次發生同樣的事件是在數千萬年前恐龍滅亡的 年代。印度日報報導，海德拉巴德的一家公司內的研究人員預言2012年將發生磁極逆轉，意味著地球磁場的北極和南極發生對調，在這個過程中地球將經歷一段 沒有磁場的狀態。同樣的事情在人類歷史上並沒有記載，所以只能通過電腦模擬推測其影響。根據海德拉巴德模型，當地球和太陽的磁場在轉換，除了可以造成電力 失效和候鳥失去辨別方向的能力外，還有其他非常嚴重的後果，包括人類和所有動物的免疫系統將會明顯削弱，而地殼變動會有更頻繁的火山、更劇烈的地質構造運 動，造成地震和山體滑坡，還有磁場減弱宇宙射線以倍數激增，放射出來的污染會引發更多癌症出現。除了對地面造成影響，天空的小行星可能會更容易接近地球， 地球的重力場亦會發生變化。把以上樣樣加在一起，不難發現2012年地球文明將受到威脅，科學家還猜測類似的事件在遙遠的過去也曾在火星發生。

預言四

火星小孩的預言

早前，歐洲和美國發射的探測器先後登上火星，燃起了人們在火星上尋找生命痕跡的熱情，此時俄羅斯媒體更披露了一個驚人的秘密。據俄羅斯《真理報》報道，俄羅斯伏爾加格勒北部一名年僅7歲的小男孩竟然自稱來自火星，而且具有令人驚歎的天賦和不尋常的才能。

據報，這個名叫波力斯卡的男孩來自一個神秘的地方———火星，長途跋涉來到俄羅斯伏爾加格勒北部充滿神秘色彩的麥德韋德茨卡亞格裡亞達地區。江南時報報 道，當地一位目擊者透露，不久前，在一個寂靜夜深的晚上，野外營地的人在空地上圍著火堆聊天暢談，突然，年僅7歲的波力斯卡躬身站起大聲呼喚，引起在場人 士的注意，所有人都注目地看著他。目擊者繼說：「原來，他想要告訴大家火星上的生活，以及火星上的居民，飛往地球的傳奇經歷。」當時，現場陷入了一片沉 寂。更令人匪夷所思的是，這個男孩甚至繪聲繪色地提到人類古老傳說中，沉入印度洋海底的神秘大陸「利莫裡亞」，火星小男孩還稱，他從火星抵達地球時恰好在 那裡登陸，對那裡的生活瞭如指掌。

更驚人的發現，這個神秘男孩至少具有兩個與眾不同的特點。首先，他擁有異乎尋常的豐富知識，智力明顯高於一個普通7歲兒童的水平。「利莫裡亞」是至少80 萬年前傳說中的神秘國家，莫說是孩子，就連大學教授也並非人人都知道，而他卻能詳細地講述這個古老國家的歷史、文明及其居民的生活。第二點是，波力斯卡具 有令人刮目相看的語言表達能力，他精通各種專業術語，甚至熟悉火星和地球的歷史。另一位目擊者說：「我認為，這個孩子在與我們分享他前世的個人記憶，而並 非胡編亂造亂說一通。」

據報道，神秘的波力斯卡生於1996年1月11日，在俄羅斯沃爾茲斯基鎮一個偏遠的鄉村醫院出生。波力斯卡的父母看上去都是樸實、心地善良的普通人。他的 母親娜德茲達是一家公共醫院的皮膚科醫生，父親是一位退役軍官。娜德茲達回憶說，男孩出生15天後，竟然能自己抬起頭。更令人驚訝的是，他一歲半時就已經 能夠讀懂報紙上的大標題，2歲之後，波力斯卡已經有超常的記憶力，以及令人難以置信的掌握新知識能力。然而，他的父母很快便發現，孩子以一種獨特的方式— 從某個神秘的國度—獲取信息。

在娜德茲達的回憶裡，從來沒有人教過他那些東西，但他有時會侃侃而談那些不著邊際的事，最喜歡就是談論火星、行星系、遙遠的文明，令人難以置信。自從2歲 開始，男孩每天像唸經一樣談論宇宙、其他世界無窮無盡的故事和漫無邊際的天空。從那時起，波力斯卡不斷地對父母說，他以前生活在火星上，當時，火星是有人 居住的，由於發生了一場毀滅性的大災難，導致大氣層消失殆盡，因此，火星上的居民現在不得不生活在地下城裡。之後，他經常出於貿易和其他研究目的走訪地 球，而且他是獨自一人駕駛太空船呢。

波力斯卡透露，這一切都發生在利莫裡亞文明興盛的時期。那時候，他在利莫裡亞有一個好朋友，但這位朋友就死在他的眼前。「當時，地球上發生了一次大災難， 一片巨大的大陸被暴風雨般的海水吞沒。突然，有一塊巨大的岩石砸到一座建築上，我的朋友正好在那裡，我根本來不及去救他。」男孩生動地描述了利莫裡亞消失 的整個畫面，就像發生在昨天。

波力斯卡說，他們的太空船從火星起飛到登陸地球幾乎在瞬間完成，此外，他拿出一支粉筆在黑板上畫了一個圓形的物體。他說：「我們的太空船由6層構成，外層 佔25%，由堅固的金屬構成，第二層佔30%，由類似橡膠的物質構成，第三層佔30%，同樣金屬，至於最後一層只有4%，是由特殊的磁材料製成的。如果我 們給這個磁層充滿能量，那麼太空船可以任意飛往宇宙任何地方。」波力斯卡又表示，行星復興的時候正來臨了，更多的火星人會在地球上出生。地球上將會有大事 情發生，這些即將降生的火星人很重要，他們可以幫助地球人對付這些大災難。然後，他煞有介事地預測著，2009年地球上的一個大陸將要發生第一次大災難， 第二次更具毀滅性的災難將在2012年發生。

( Obtained from www.plus28.com)

Judgement day ....

This is the timetable of my Final Exam .... I will start to take the exam from the beginning of the exam week until the end of the exam week . It seem a hell for me ....

26/10: TDR I
28/10: TDR II
29/10: Bometry and Experimental Design
31/10: Kursus Pengurusan Persatuan I
03/11: Biochemstry ( disaster )
05/11: Microbial genetics ( not easy paper although 2 units only )
11/11: Biochemistry practical I
12/11: Computer application on science and Technology ( Never Understand it )

How is it ? it seem nice to all of you . However , for me , it look like disaster because all the tough subjects are put within a week time . It make me no time to read more ... So , i need to start now ..

Ganbateh ..

国大中秋 - Pesta TingLung

I just went back From stage performance of Pesta Tinglung UKM . After finish watching the stage performance , i found that it gave me a lots of feelings and lessons . The feelings that i never think about at all for long time ago .

First at all , we need to love our own culture although we live at modern world now . The culture of our own races like Hokkien , Hakka or TeowChew need to be inherited from one generation to generation . If we don't do that , these cultures will be disappeared forever without any signs of leaving . As a result , we lose our own identity , our own root . Thus , what we need to do is to keep on remind the new generation to recognize their own culture . For example , the new generation supposed to learn to speak in Hakka , Hokkien and Teowchew and at the same time , they need to keep on practicing our culture in order to keep these all language still alive in our world .

On the other hand , we need to speak or do the correct thing in a correct time and situation . We cant neglect something in order to keep our face . There are some cases where if you don't make a correct decision like forgive people or tell people something , you would fell regret when that particular people is not available for you to do that . Hence , for those who quarrel with your family , friends or somebody else , please forgive each other by saying a word " sorry " . Then , it will make a huge change on your life or your future .

lastly , the communication method we using now need to be changed for our own benefit . For now days , the technology we have now make the communication method we used changed from a traditional way to a digital way . This make less contact among the people . Since the communnication is important for a socialize animal like us , therefore it will bring a lots problem to us . For example , there is less understanding between parents and children , there is some people can't express their own feeling to other people or there is a misunderstanding between different races in certain country . These all things come from the wrong communication method we used now . Hence , try to communicate with people face-to-face , talk with people by sharing experience or just send some regard to those people you seldom talk to them . This make a different .

Thus , these are some my feelings on this stage performance . Hope they can a better for next year ... Gambateh ....

MOon 月亮

Tomorrow is the moon cake festival . Almost all of my friends go to house to celebrate this festival with family . However , for me , i don't go back to my home although my house quite near from my Bangi house ( just half an hours journey ) . Hence , my friends always ask me the reason for this action . Then , i will tell them ," my family don't celebrate this festival for long time " . At this moment , i started to refresh back my memory when i was young ( my primary school period ) .

The reason for me to celebrate the moon cake festival because my grandfather . For your information , my grandfather really love me so much among all the grandson and grand-daughter he had . Hence , every time i went to my grand-father's house to celebrate moon cake festival , i really enjoy it . We all would sit together and chat for anything while we had the foods in front of us . We would light up the candle , burn the " Ting Long " , and walk around with friends . How a wonderful experience for me at that time .

However , this all things were gone when my grandfather passed away when i was Standard Six . All the celebration was stop and my family never celebrate it for the following years . Hence , i am not interested on this festival anymore . i just have an impression that this day is a day which i can eat moon cake only , then other thing seem no related with me .

But , these are my own opinion and feeling on MOON CAKE FESTIVAL . You all don't bother on it . So , for those who celebrate the moon cake festival , HAPPY MOON CAKE FESTIVAL to you all .

Gathering ....

Yesterday , our "Cui Shui Group " had a gathering since 6 months ago . As usual , we all share our story , problem , current status ( have bf or gf ) and more . Our gathering started at 6pm until 11.30pm although we had planned to leave at 10.30 pm due to we all chat until forget the time .

At this gathering , we started to share the new semester' case . It looks like all of us busy on our own thing , like i busy on pesta konvo and other activity , kkit busy on "升学－Shen Xue " , waikuan busy on "佛光-fo guang＂，meimay busy on " 天籁之音-tian lai zhi ying " and yoonming busy on his song creating and other activity . It seem that our of us started to have a busy study environment since this semester . After that , we started to talk our Form 6 life again , like when the spot check , what we had done , when the assembly going on , what we had done , the special case when Pn chan taught us chemistry and more . All these memory make us feel that want to go back our Form 6 life .

Beside this , we still chat on other thing . Due to these thing are secret , only the members can get know on it . Hence , you all cant know it . If you want to know it , go to apply the membership from us .....

After the gathering , we need to wait for another holiday or other occasion to have a meet again . However , i really enjoy this meeting because i really can have a short-termed relax on that moment because i share my experience with them . Really a wonderful moment .

Our Friendship last Forever ......

LAzy ...

Since i almost finished my all mid semester exams except the TDR 1 exam , therefore i don't have any mood to study my books . Although i put my book in front of my eyes or on the table , i rather go to Facebook-ing or watch drama series than go to read about the book . This maybe due to i too suffered for past few weeks ago . I really tired on this ....

i hope the coming holiday can make me return back to original state .....

VaLUe oF Me ..

There is a saying states that when you are alone in your room or a particular situation , you will start to think about some extraordinary things . I totally agreed on it . Just now , i am alone in my house for about 2 hours , no ones talk to me , no ones play with me and on ones can't sense my presence in my house because all of them so tired due to the Biometry exam in the morning , so they all go for a deep sleep . Just left me alone in the living room . Although i am also tired , however i can't have a sleep now and the same thing goes for past few days ago because i started to think about one thing , that is the VALUE OF ME ...

What is the value or role of me in this time ?
Is that being a good son or elder brother in my family ?
Being a never grown up before young man in front of my friends ?
Being a course-mate who loves to read books ?
Being a shadow in front of your eyes or my eyes ?
Or lastly , being a noob or doll in front of the public ?
These all values really are mine ?
Are these values really accompany me all the time ?
Or are they just a false skin in front of my true face ?
I really don't know them well .....

For example , last night i started to think about the impression of mine in front of my dear friends . Are they really make friend with me ? Or just want to take something from me ? I knew that this is not good for me to think like that . But , i really can't stop my mind . I hope i can get a good answer for next few days ....

Furthermore , why i need to hold that post if i really don't work hard for it ? Do i really greedy on the power or status ? Should i left it pass across my hand ? I think i should let it be because i really don't want this kind of case happen at me . I hate this kind of thing in my memory . It really is nightmare or disaster in my life ..... I think this question has its own answer from this moment now on .....

Other questions still on the progress . When these all question settle in one day , then i will know the value or role of me in this time .

MID SEM ...

Recently , i busy on my mid semester exams that started from last wednesday until next thursday night . For your information , i need to sit for 5 exams for this semester , that is :

1. TDR 1
2. Biochemistry
3. Biometry & Experimental design
   
4. Microbial genetics
5. Computer programming C
   

These all subjects make me exhausted because there is a a lots of notes and books need to be read before you can sit for the exam , especially for biochemistry and biometry & experimental design . For example , in the biochemistry paper , i need to study for two chapters , that is enzyme and gluconeogenesis . In the enzyme part , i need to learn to plot at least 4 types of graph which include Linewaever-Burk plot , Eadie-Hoftee plot , Hanes-Woolf plot and Michaelis-Menten plot . Beside that , i also need to understand the derivation of the formulae for the competitive inhibitor , non-competitive inhibitor and uncompetitive inhibitor . On the other hand , i have to memorize the cycle of the gluconeogenesis include it regulation processes , reaction pathway and more .

For other subjects , more and more things need to be memorized and understood . So , i have to busy all the time until i finish my final exams that maybe started from 26 October 2009 and end at 12 November 2009 .... Hope i can pass through it ........

The ENd ..

Finally , Pesta Konvokesyen ke -37 in my university come to the end yesterday ....

I really want to thank all my partner because you all give me a lots of good memory from April 09 until August 09 ...

They are :

1. Along
   
2. Ah bon
   
3. Ah boon
   
4. 4-flat
   
5. shah
   
6. Nor
   
7. Ila
   
8. all ajkp who i knew
   

I hope you can also have a good time when working with me for this 4 months ....

Really Sorry to You all ...

2 weeks ago , i asked you all come to join my team ..........

However , i have to tell you all that i not sure can give you all a certificate for your help in this whole week .....

I really feel very sorry to you all ........

I feel shamed and "pai seh " to ask you all help me to do other activity again due to this case happened on you all .....

Hope you all can forgive me ........

Really a thanks ????

When some ones put a lot of efforts on some things , then he or she should hear " Thank for your effort " from other partner . If they should say it with their TRUE heart . Then , the "thank you " will be the best present for that person ........

However , if they just say it due to the environmental pressure , then it just a fake action in fronts of that people . On the other hand , it will hurt that people deeply .....

If really this case happen on you , then how would you look on it ? Hence , when you do anything on other people , please think before it come out from your mouth ... This is because you may get it back when you do work with other people ... I really believe it ...... There is a cycle in this world , just the TIME make a decision whether it want to come early or late .... Just wait it .....

Appreciate ....

Do we need to show out what we have done for the activity or something else ?

Cant we do the thing without anyone knows about i t ?

Do we need to tell other people that i am doing work ?

Do they need to so particular on it ?

Why they just cant let it be ?

Recently , these all questions always appear in my mind . These questions give me a lots of problems when i want to decide whether want to join or not from now on . This is because i am that kind of person who does not like people keep on asking me the progress of the activity . If you let me in-charge on one activity , then you must believe me totally . If not , i will not work in full strength or may not help you do anything anymore next time due to i will no mood or force to do it again ........

This is me !

Happy Birthday

Sorry for being so late to wish you " Happy Birthday , SUE WEN "

At here ,

i want to wish you will happy all the way during this whole life !

I wish you will get a "DIN" when you finish your study , so do i !

I wish you will accompany with the people who love you so deep !

I wish you can enjoy your university life better than this moment !

Lastly , i say " Happy Birthday to you ! "

Flying ....

Yesterday , i went for a farewell party of my Secondary School Friend , Mun Seng Kit ( Cedric ) .

Without any of signs , i knew him for 9 years since we were fresh student at SMK Jalan San Peng ( now called SMK Dato' Onn ) . Then , we become Perfect together in the school for 5 years , join Interact Club , Chinese Language Society , Sidang Redeksi and more . Suddenly , i get knew that he need to fly to USA to further his Degree Study . At the first second , i started to feel sad because I need to separate from him in many miles away although we live in a high-tech world now ( chat with MSN or send Email ) . However , what can do now , i just left is to pray for him and wish him have a good life in USA .

Now , he need to learn a totally new culture from his own culture . However, with the help of his sisters , i think he can adapt into a new life easily .... All the best to him ....

We are Friends FOREVER ...............

Respect

Two days ago , there was a sad memory for me to start my whole day lecture class from 8 am to 2 pm . This is the story .....

When we planned to go out from our house , our neighbor scold us about the way of our car parked has blocked someone's car out from his house . However , the way they parked their car also in the wrong manner . They told us that why we don't respect people . At the same time , they also said that we are the student , so we need to follow the rule . At that moment , since we rush for our class, hence we don't bother it so much .

However , when we think it back , then we noticed that the way they talked is so rude because they scold us so loud and what is the meaning of " you all are students right , so you all need to follow the rule " . This sentence means that one of the responsibility of student is to follow the rule , and how about them ? They no need follow it since there are some cars block our way out from our house . Why we don't bother it because we knew that there is few parking site . So , we just let it be . If we want to talk about it , then all the neighbor will scold each other .... Why make this thing happen ?

Although we make a mistake at there , however the way they parked the car also got mistake . Both of us got mistake , too . Why they don't think that they have responsibility on it ? Maybe they thought that they are the old resident here , then they are more powerfully than us . So , we need to follow their rule ? Don't think so much !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weakness ...

Started from the 1st day i have a new friend , i noticed that i have a huge weakness within my mind that i can't stand on it , that is i seldom go to understand 1 people in detail .This is because one of my best friends told me that i seldom care about people by asking their condition , problem that they faced to or the favorite thing of my friends . This make them feel that i don't want make friend with them or not sincere with them anymore .......

For this moment , i still don't understand why i behave like that ! I always ask myself why i don't spend some time to understand well my friends . Every time , i don't get the answer from this question . This make me feel that the incredible of our mind . This is because we can't control our mind to act as what we like . When it want to do that , then you can't do like this . This is why a lots people commit suicide or murder people . Since they can't stand the pressure or the problem they faced to , then they let their their mind to control them . Hence , a lots of crime cases happen in this world now ....

That is why everyone in this world has it own logic thinking or the way that they prefer to act . So , do i need to take out my weakness from me or i just let it be ?

Really can make it ??

Today is the first day of second year university . I supposed to be very happy on it because i can meet all my university friends . However , due to the stupid course timetable and the lab timetable , all this thing make me feel disappointed on the management of the faculty of mine . i don't know what they done on it . For example , there were 3 classes planned to have class at the same classroom and time . This make some lecturer angry on it .What can we do ? Just wait , and wait until they settle it as soon as possible . Hope so ........

Beside this , i also need to settle the problem of the pesta konvo . This stupid program make me i want to die soon because no ones can do thing for me except my TTK . All hope me can handle this although i am the first time to handle this program . They just send me a sms to ask me do that , do this , call her o him . All these things happen in this busy first week of second year . i totally fell regret to join this pesta Konvo ......

After few days later , i maybe need to handle the new junior thing by arranging the meeting , the annual dinner and the senior - junior system . All thing need to be done before August ..... It make me feel that want to commit suicide ......

Hence, this is all i need to do on this two months of my Second year . Hope i can do it in good way without affecting my result .....

Lembing Trip .....

How a disaster for me . For these three days , i just have about 8 hours sleep in total . However ,it gives me a good memory for me before i enter my Second Year university life ....

AS usual , we gathered at Puduraya around 10 am and went into bus around 1030 am . After abourt 3 hours and 30 minutes journey , we reached at Kuantan . Then , we called CHOON KIT to fetch us to have a lunch . AFter that , we went for a bowling session . WIthin this 2 hours , we hold a competition among us . However , due to some problems from the management , this competition can't be suscessed . At 6 pm , we went to Teluk Chempadak ( TC ) . We walked along the beach and had a photo session at there . Then , we went for dinner and back to Sungai Lembing to check in the room . After taking bath , we played mahjong and chat with each other . At 2.00 am , we took a sleep .

At 430 am , we woke up and prepared ourself for the next activity , searching Rainbow waterfall . After 1 hour car driving and 30 minutes walking , we reached at Rainbow waterfall . There is a good place with a wonderfull view and nice air to breathe . We played with water while waiting for the appearance of the Rainbow . Luckily , we finally can see the Rainbow in front of our eye . At 11 am , we walked back to town . However , in the middle of the journey , the sky started to cry . So , we walked in the forest with the body was wet . When we reached the place where we put the car , the sky smile to us by giving a good weather to us . But , the sky started to cry again when we on the half way back to town . All my friends very enjoy this situation by giving a big smile to me when i took photo for them inside the car . After that , we had a lunch in CHOON KIT' antie house and then we went to kuantan again to have our bowling session and watch ICE AGE 3 . Then , we went to TC Mcdonald to have our dinner and back to Sungai Lembing to take a rest because we had a climbing session tomorrow .

At 530 am , we woke up and prepared ourself for the climbing session . we took around 30 minutes to reach the Lembing Hill . we all exhausted when finished the climbing ( i almost can't climb the hill because i don't have breakfast before the climbing session started ) . Due to the bad weather , we can't see the sunrise . After having the breakfast , we went to clean our thing for the preparation back to KL . At 1230 pm , we all sat in the bus and preapered to back .

At 0400 pm , we walked at Titiwangsa LRT station .

Trip again ...

Another 9 hours later , i will on the journey to the Kuantan . If i not mistaken , this is the second time i go to travel with my university friends . The First trip that we went for is Penang . For that trip , we have a good memory because we just all time went for meals and drinks . I still remember i have around 9 or 10 drinks for a whole day exclude the normal water i drunk in . How terrible the experience , but i still enjoy it ...

For this kuantan trip , i have a high expectation on it because i can take a look on the legendary Rainbow waterfall and the Lembing hill . I hope that i can watch a lot of rainbow in front of my eye because my friend said that not every time you go there , you sure can watch it . This phenomena must depend on your luck and the weather on that area .....

Lastly , all the best to my Kuantan Trip . After that , i will post all the beatifull photo on this blog .... Wait for it .....

Holiday

For this moment , I finally can have a true holiday for my First year study in university . For those who really not in touch with me for a long time , sure you all can’t understand what I said here . Normally , I shall have a two months holiday since this May 09 . However , I had joined Pesta Konvo this year , so , I need to stay at University to work for free . I will call a lot of companies to ask for sponsorship of mineral water and hamper as my daily job in the Office .

Recently , Pesta Konvo organized a activity called Pertandingan Debat Piala TNC . This was a three days activity and involved 22 schools took part in the competition . As usual , as a member of Sekretariat Tugas – Tugas khas dan Kebajikan , we need to prepare food and drinks for this three days activity . In these three days , I need to wake up at 6am and work for 8-9 hours . I really suffer a lot within these three days . Luckily , I passed all these work and I can have nice holiday on my house .

In this two weeks holiday , I will watch movie , animation and drama in the whole days . This is because I need to work hard for next semester in order to get a good pointer when I graduate from this university . Gambateh to me and enjoy this two weeks holiday .

Konvo 1 day Trip

As usual , this activity is one of the activities for the Pesta Konvo . Today , we need to go to Gunung Ledang , Johor and Malacca .

Gunung Ledang Trip :

This time , my friends and i need to wake up at 3.30am because we need to depart to Gunung Ledang at 4.30 am . Since the time is too rush , i decided to have nap in the evening and don't sleep at night . At 4.30 am , all three buses started to go to Gunung ledang , Johor . During the journey , my friends and i sleep all the ties in the bus , so we skip the morning breaskfast . When we reached at Gunung Ledang , Johor at around 8 am , the organiser started the 1st game , that is explore race game . OMG , how can i join this game without my breakfast because i need to climb the hill and run all the time . Hence , i feel exhausted during this game . However , our team still become 1st Runner-up for this game . After that , we went for the second game , that is searching sweets in the particular area . Unlucky , our team got the fourt place although the amount of sweets we got was only less 1 sweets than the 2nd Runner-up . After these games finished , we went to the water game in the river . The water totally freezes my legs and hands . And my friends wnet for a spa in the river . At 1pm , we supposed have our lunch , but due to some problem , we had our lunch at Kawasan Rehat Toll at 2.30pm . So , hungry man ......

Malacca trip :

At 3pm , we started to go to Malacca . When we reached there , we went to Dataran Pahlawan to have our activity , like shopping , having ice-cream , watchng people drawing and more . At 6.30 pm , we went to Newton Food court to have our dinner . After that , we went ot Menara TAming sari there to have the night view of Malacca . At 9pm , we went back to UKM . At 10.45 pm , we reached at UKM .

This is the 1 day trip of Pesta Konvo .

Sem 2 Result ....

Only one word i can say for my result , that is poor and disappointed on it . When i open the UKM website , i really felt nervous and excited . However , i fell sad after looking on it . I really got a bad result for my Chemistry subject .

How can this thing happen on me ?

How far the distance between my dream and reality ?

What can i do ?

Really want to Follow the order that i get from other people ?

Can i become myself in University ?

* All this will become some questions for me to figure out for next two weeks holiday before i can go Kuantan trip with a happy Heart .

DReam .....

Today , i had 2 mystery dreams when i took a nap . In the dream , i had a nap , too . Suddenly , someone knocked my door , then i woke up and went to open the door . When i open the door , i saw 2 boys and a girl in front of my eyes . I asked them the reason why they knocked my door . They answered me that Today is Halloween day and spray the cream on my face . I felt angry on them and scold them , too . However , they don't fell anything embarrassment when i started to scold them . And then , they started to check my room and make the clothes fall on the floor . Then , i said that these clothes not belongs to me , so you all can do that .They felt shocked . After that , i make another dream again .

In these second dream , i took a nap , too . However , i woke up in a sudden and i can't move my body . I saw i was sleeping on the bed. To my horror , i was watching LEOW KHAR KEONG sleep on the bed . The scene make me fell chill . At that moment , i begin to ask me wake up from the nap . However , the SLEEPING of me can't wake up . Then , the WATCHING of me continue scream nap shout to make me wake up . This process was stopped when i heard my alarm . When i woke up , i found that the time was 2.41pm although i set the alarm at 2.30 pm . Why i cant heard the 2.30 pm alarm ??? I usually can hear the no matter how deep sleep on that moment !!!

These two dreams make me fell strange !! How about you ???

The last day of May 09

Without any signs , i need to stay into June of 2009 after today ! i think that i don't do much things for these five months in 2009 . I just need to study , do activities , gathering , enjoy my Chinese New Year , go out with University or secondary or Form 6 friends and had my 1st Year exam at April . That all had i done for this five months . I don't do anything which is meaningful to me , my family or the society . I felt that i wasted my time .

Hence , i have to start a new plan for the next SEVEN month of 2009 . If not , i will feel regret for this .

Any good Suggestion from you all ????

Really FrienD exist ????

Through these day , i started to hesitate  about the existence Of a true friendship in Real World . Since the first day i make new friends , i  easily thought that person as my good friend although i just knew him or her for 2 or 3 hours ago . This situation occur due to the personality of mine . Since i enter the primary school , i lack of confidence to make a new friend , therefore when someone come to approach me and make friend with me , i really fell happy and touched .

However , recently i started to fell doubt about the term of " FRIEND " . The reason for it ,i fell sorry as  i can't tell you here because the answer are so sensitive to say ( i think the word " write " is more suitable here )  here . I just return back to my original state , Blur .......................... i don't know what is IT ? What kind of appearance of IT ? What are the conditions for me to consider my FRIEND as FRIEND ?

I think i will try to figure it out as soon as possible because i don't hurt the person who i care most , and lastly i don't hurt me , too . 

Cui Sui Group gathering

I think that this is the first time for me to meet some of our group member since october 08 . These people are Kkit-kun and meimay-chan . Yming-kun , i can meet him 3 times a week because we attend the same class at Bangi Campus and Waikuan-chan , i don't meet her since the CNY gathering .

For this gathering , we first planned to have our dinner and chatting session at FREE & EASY . However , we found that tis cafer closed ( actually not us , is waikuan found it because she reached on time , sorry to waikuan-chan ) , therefore , we went to SAMOSA Cafeteria . When we settled down , we ordered the meal and started our chatting by asking the recent condition since we don't meet each other for long time .

During the chatting session , we chat about the HAPPY and SAD thing ( For the detail , i can't tell you all here due to it is a high Secret ) . We also exchange our opinion on the topic we discussed there . At the same time , we watched the Badminton Competition between China and Malaysia .

At here , there is a surprise for me , that is they celebrated my birthday with me , although my birthday was pass away ( my Birthday is 4 of May ) . I really very happy and want to say thank you to them to having this birthday party with me . thanks man . . .

After that , we end our gathering by going back home . After that , we started to plan the next gathering on the end of May or June . . . . . .

4D3N Pahang trip

From 8 May - 11 May 2009 , my friends and i went to Pahang to have our " KURSUS KOMUNIKASI KOPORAT " This seminar was organized by the PUSAT PERKEMBANGAN PELAJAR ( PPP ) and PESTA KONVO . The purpose of the seminar is to improve our communication skill and soft skill .

About the resort i stayed for these days , i can say 1 word to represent my feeling on it , that is " worst " Since the resort at the middle of the forest , therefore there are no air- condition service at there . Because of the hot weather for these days , the resort seem a hell where we all sweating like a dog ..... And , there are just 2 bathroom for 29 boys used for bathing and other purpose .

About the course or the talk given by this seminar , it seem very bored to me because all the talk are so common to me . All seem very familiar compared to the last few seminar that i attended before .

About the outdoor activity , we went to Gua Terang Bulan for a visit . This is the first time for me to enter the cave , I feel very nervous and excited for this trip . These are the photos i took during the journey :







For overall , i think still OK because just the accommodation and the talk are not so good

Then , i need to go for another camp at Sungai Siput , Perak at the end of May . I hope this camp will nor make me fell sad again

Exam day 6 & 7

Last saturday , i need to have my Co-k exam , that is Persatuan Pelajar II .

For this paper , i just can answer about 75%- 80 % questions out of 50 questions because there are 10 questions are past year questions . i fell so sad on it . But , what can i do ?
Just take it easy !!!!

Yesterday , i need to take my last exam paper , that is Fundamental of Microbioloy .

For this paper , i am sure that i lost 16 marks out of 100 marks in this paper because i checked it out when i went back to my room . By the way , i can answer 65 % - 70 % of this paper . I think that this is a good news for me . Hence , i hope that i can get a good result from the lecturer .

After finishing this paper , my 1st year university life is gone . When i start my new semester , i will become 2nd year student and i will more bust than my 1st year . I hope i can settle it well .