Tomorrow is the first day of my exam journey . The feeling of mine at this moment is relaxing . I don't know this feeling can happen on me ! Since my result not so good for the last two semesters , i supposed need to work harder and harder compared to other people , no game , no facebook-ing , no animation or no dreaming at there . However , i really feel relaxed on this second . Maybe , i think that i had done all my best to overcome these exam papers or in my deep mind , it says that " no need study hard anymore because you cant change anything although you had done these all things " . I am not sure which of there two thinking is dominating my mind now , but i really sure that i really not think that exam is a HELL to me , it may become a small step to me to enter the HEAVEN . This all things has its own possibility to occur .
For me , i think that i still can handle my own destiny .......
I really feel tired about what had i done for this long time . If everyone i knew asked my help , i will help them with all my strength because they are my friends , my beloved family members or someone that i don't know them . I think that this is a compulsory job for me to do that since they asked for my help .
When i was standard 1 , i seldom get the love or something that relavant with this because i am the elder son in the family. The main role of my duty is to take care my brothers and do my thing in my effort . I still can remember the feeling when no ones will ask my feeling include my own parents because they need to take care their job and my little brothers . They never ask me about anything on me . This is bcause they think that i can handle it well due to i am the elder . At this situation , i can understand them .
However , i still have 1 people that really care on me , that is my grandfather . Every moment that i stay with him , i still recall back although it happenned when i was 5 years old at that time . For example , every time i went to his house , he sure will bring me to buy anything that i want or ask me anything include my academic result , my friend or anything . This make me felt warm and love . I really have a wonderfull memory on that moment . However , when i was standard 6 , my grandfather suddenly passed away .When i knew about it , i started to ask myself about why i don't spend my time with him . Everytime , my mum asked me to go my grandfather's house , i rejected her because i felt bored when i at there . I rather stay at home and play my Play station better than go there . I really hated me because i make a stupid mistake that make me felt regret and guity for my whole life .
After this thing happenned on me , i started to scare to lost anything from me . Hence , i will do all my best to retain my family relation , friendship or others . I started to put me in the second place in my heart , the first place always will be the person who i knew . This action last for about 10 years . I really felt tired and no more deermination to continue it now . I really want to stop it ....... let stop it for now ......
Good bye the old of me !!!!! Welcome the new of me !!!!!!
This is the timetable of my Final Exam .... I will start to take the exam from the beginning of the exam week until the end of the exam week . It seem a hell for me ....
26/10: TDR I 28/10: TDR II 29/10: Bometry and Experimental Design 31/10: Kursus Pengurusan Persatuan I 03/11: Biochemstry ( disaster ) 05/11: Microbial genetics ( not easy paper although 2 units only ) 11/11: Biochemistry practical I 12/11: Computer application on science and Technology ( Never Understand it )
How is it ? it seem nice to all of you . However , for me , it look like disaster because all the tough subjects are put within a week time . It make me no time to read more ... So , i need to start now ..
I just went back From stage performance of Pesta Tinglung UKM . After finish watching the stage performance , i found that it gave me a lots of feelings and lessons . The feelings that i never think about at all for long time ago .
First at all , we need to love our own culture although we live at modern world now . The culture of our own races like Hokkien , Hakka or TeowChew need to be inherited from one generation to generation . If we don't do that , these cultures will be disappeared forever without any signs of leaving . As a result , we lose our own identity , our own root . Thus , what we need to do is to keep on remind the new generation to recognize their own culture . For example , the new generation supposed to learn to speak in Hakka , Hokkien and Teowchew and at the same time , they need to keep on practicing our culture in order to keep these all language still alive in our world .
On the other hand , we need to speak or do the correct thing in a correct time and situation . We cant neglect something in order to keep our face . There are some cases where if you don't make a correct decision like forgive people or tell people something , you would fell regret when that particular people is not available for you to do that . Hence , for those who quarrel with your family , friends or somebody else , please forgive each other by saying a word " sorry " . Then , it will make a huge change on your life or your future .
lastly , the communication method we using now need to be changed for our own benefit . For now days , the technology we have now make the communication method we used changed from a traditional way to a digital way . This make less contact among the people . Since the communnication is important for a socialize animal like us , therefore it will bring a lots problem to us . For example , there is less understanding between parents and children , there is some people can't express their own feeling to other people or there is a misunderstanding between different races in certain country . These all things come from the wrong communication method we used now . Hence , try to communicate with people face-to-face , talk with people by sharing experience or just send some regard to those people you seldom talk to them . This make a different .
Thus , these are some my feelings on this stage performance . Hope they can a better for next year ... Gambateh ....
Tomorrow is the moon cake festival . Almost all of my friends go to house to celebrate this festival with family . However , for me , i don't go back to my home although my house quite near from my Bangi house ( just half an hours journey ) . Hence , my friends always ask me the reason for this action . Then , i will tell them ," my family don't celebrate this festival for long time " . At this moment , i started to refresh back my memory when i was young ( my primary school period ) .
The reason for me to celebrate the moon cake festival because my grandfather . For your information , my grandfather really love me so much among all the grandson and grand-daughter he had . Hence , every time i went to my grand-father's house to celebrate moon cake festival , i really enjoy it . We all would sit together and chat for anything while we had the foods in front of us . We would light up the candle , burn the " Ting Long " , and walk around with friends . How a wonderful experience for me at that time .
However , this all things were gone when my grandfather passed away when i was Standard Six . All the celebration was stop and my family never celebrate it for the following years . Hence , i am not interested on this festival anymore . i just have an impression that this day is a day which i can eat moon cake only , then other thing seem no related with me .
But , these are my own opinion and feeling on MOON CAKE FESTIVAL . You all don't bother on it . So , for those who celebrate the moon cake festival , HAPPY MOON CAKE FESTIVAL to you all .