Lonely

I really not sure that the moment when i waiting for the sunset alone

is a good for me or a bad for me

Sometime

when i am alone at my own room

i will feel happy and free a bit

because i can do my favorite thing without anyone stop me at all

however

when i m alone for too long

I started to feel that loneliness is a very dangerous friend for me

It makes me feel empty

It makes me feel lonely

It makes me feel lack of love

It also makes me feel helpless

For now

I really not sure that

i m suitable for being alone or i need someone around me

This question

I can say that i cant understand it now

The answer of this question maybe just in front of my eyes

or it just hides at a very far away from me

latest Update 1

As you knew about that , i am enjoying my school holiday now . However , inside my deep heart , i don't think that this is a nice holiday to me because one word can describe it out , that is " BORED" . The reason for me to say this is my holiday came so early while all of my other friends still busy on their study or exams . For another group of friends , they also busy on their activity . Hence , i just stay at home and enjoy my home time .

Some of my net friends keep on asking me why i don't go find a part time job for 1 month , but i just told them one word also , that is " LAZY" . This is because this holiday maybe is my last holiday which i still can enjoy it . When my next new semester begin , i need to busy on my thesis , lab work or assignments . After that , i need to go for industry training from May 2011 until August 2011 . Then , i need prepare for VIVA and search for a new job . If i was lucky , i would get my job at September or October 2011 . If not , i will further my study to master study .

If i want to study master , then i need to search information about my course that i need to apply and search for scholarship or loan to support my study because i don't want give my family a burden on my study .

Hence , i really need to enjoy this holiday .

To all my friends , i hope you all come back soon .

Then , we can go for drink tea , eat dim sum and have long night chat .

Finally

After 4 months of hardship and challenge , My fifth semester of my university life came to an end . Today is the last day of my exam week , That is Bacaan Dalam Bahasa Cina ( Chinese Literature ) exam paper . When i finished my last word on that exam paper , i totally feel that i was released from the exam stress since two weeks ago . However , when i went back to my Bangi Home , i started to feel empty and lonely . This is maybe due to i cant meet my course-mate for a long period , or maybe due to i noticed that my degree university life is becoming to be one page of my history book .

Therefore , i really need to enjoy my last semester of my degree university life . I want to make sure it gives a good ending on my story for this chapter in my history book .