latest Update 5

I feel happy because i went for sing k with my friends ( Yuen Fatt , See Hoe , Pin Lim , Juinn Shian and Yoon Ming ) . I really thanks to them because they knew that i got something happen around me recently . Hence , they just let me sing as many as i want . I feel ashamed after went out from K box .

Anyway , i really feel good by having you all as my friend .

Love You aLL ~~

latest Update 4

At here , i really want to say THANKS to you .

After saying all those things to you , i felt released and nice .

This is because i knew that you will always support me regardless of what decision i had made .

You will always be with me when i need someone

Although

I knew you are busying with own stuff

But , you still chat with me for 1 hour

I really thanks to you

!!!

latest Update 3

I reaLLy Pissed Off With something noW !!!

WHo cAn LeT mE ExPresS iT FulLy ?

AnYonE aSLo can !!!

I ReallY nOt cAre Who YoU aRe

PleAse HelP mE !!!!

latest Update 2

Time passed very fast , I just notice that i still left 2 more weeks to go for my holiday , then i need to back to my University Life again . First at all , i tell you all honestly , i don't have any mood or good feeling when i knew that i want to back to my university although i feel bored when i enjoy my holiday at my home . For some of my close friends , they sure knew a bit about what happened on me last semester . It makes me feel stress and pissed off when i enter my house at bangi , especially when i went back to my Bangi house one weeks ago .

However , after listening to all my friend's opinion , i really don't have any feeling on that particular person anymore . I just cant sense any " HOME" feeling at that Bangi home . Compared to last time , i was so desperate to back HOME because i can meet them , play with them and chat with them . But , after that case happened on me , all these feelings gone from my mind . I started to feel that University friend not always good as what i thought when i enter into university . It make me feel that i have a gap or a barrier between me and that person when i talk with them .

Hence , i don't want that thing happen on me anymore . Hope my mood back to normal when i enter my university .

My course-mates , you all are only thing i miss for my university life .

Hope we can be friend forever ~~~

Lonely

I really not sure that the moment when i waiting for the sunset alone

is a good for me or a bad for me

Sometime

when i am alone at my own room

i will feel happy and free a bit

because i can do my favorite thing without anyone stop me at all

however

when i m alone for too long

I started to feel that loneliness is a very dangerous friend for me

It makes me feel empty

It makes me feel lonely

It makes me feel lack of love

It also makes me feel helpless

For now

I really not sure that

i m suitable for being alone or i need someone around me

This question

I can say that i cant understand it now

The answer of this question maybe just in front of my eyes

or it just hides at a very far away from me

latest Update 1

As you knew about that , i am enjoying my school holiday now . However , inside my deep heart , i don't think that this is a nice holiday to me because one word can describe it out , that is " BORED" . The reason for me to say this is my holiday came so early while all of my other friends still busy on their study or exams . For another group of friends , they also busy on their activity . Hence , i just stay at home and enjoy my home time .

Some of my net friends keep on asking me why i don't go find a part time job for 1 month , but i just told them one word also , that is " LAZY" . This is because this holiday maybe is my last holiday which i still can enjoy it . When my next new semester begin , i need to busy on my thesis , lab work or assignments . After that , i need to go for industry training from May 2011 until August 2011 . Then , i need prepare for VIVA and search for a new job . If i was lucky , i would get my job at September or October 2011 . If not , i will further my study to master study .

If i want to study master , then i need to search information about my course that i need to apply and search for scholarship or loan to support my study because i don't want give my family a burden on my study .

Hence , i really need to enjoy this holiday .

To all my friends , i hope you all come back soon .

Then , we can go for drink tea , eat dim sum and have long night chat .

Finally

After 4 months of hardship and challenge , My fifth semester of my university life came to an end . Today is the last day of my exam week , That is Bacaan Dalam Bahasa Cina ( Chinese Literature ) exam paper . When i finished my last word on that exam paper , i totally feel that i was released from the exam stress since two weeks ago . However , when i went back to my Bangi Home , i started to feel empty and lonely . This is maybe due to i cant meet my course-mate for a long period , or maybe due to i noticed that my degree university life is becoming to be one page of my history book .

Therefore , i really need to enjoy my last semester of my degree university life . I want to make sure it gives a good ending on my story for this chapter in my history book .