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Chinese New Year 2011

2011-01-29T19:34:00.001+08:00

I don't notice that Chinese new year is just around the corner .

However, i still can't sense any CNY feelings at this moment .

Maybe i m frustrated with a lot of thing recently .

Anyway , i still hope that my friends and my course-mates still can have a nice and wonderful CNY .

Although this CNY holiday is too short for you all .

But , i think that what you all want from this CNY is the reunion feeling from all the people you all loved .

Hence , enjoy it and appreciate it .

Finally

2011-01-26T00:11:00.003+08:00

It seem that i really have long time never update this english blog since the early of Jan 2011 . I think some of my friends will think i disappear from this world . However , to all your information , i don't give up this blog , just because there are no much important thing happen around me recently . At the same time , i also can't online about 1 month due to some internet connection problem at my own home . Hence , i seldom update my latest status to you all .

Since the early of this Jan , i just busy with my own study and my final year project . Beside from that , there are no much different thing happen for my university life . Maybe this semester is my last semester of my degree life , so i need to spend some time with my beloved course-mate because we will seldom meet each other after the graduation day ( around September 2011 ) .

Furthermore , there are some cases happen at my family . But , i think that there is not good for me discuss it here . Hence , you all no need so worry on me because i still can handle it well with a preparation on it .

Wakakak ~~

I think that this is what i want to tell you all on this time .

I think i will try to update this English blog more frequently.

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New year wishes 2011

2011-01-07T16:23:00.003+08:00

These are all my new year wishes for this year 2011 :

I want to buy a watch .
I want to buy a Iphone 4
I want to buy a DSLR
I want to have a nice life for this year
I want to a nice job if i go to work
I want to get a good result for my degree or master study ( if i study master )
I wish all my friends happy forever .

latest Update 5

2010-12-14T17:17:00.002+08:00

I feel happy because i went for sing k with my friends ( Yuen Fatt , See Hoe , Pin Lim , Juinn Shian and Yoon Ming ) . I really thanks to them because they knew that i got something happen around me recently . Hence , they just let me sing as many as i want . I feel ashamed after went out from K box .

Anyway , i really feel good by having you all as my friend .

Love You aLL ~~

latest Update 4

2010-12-12T23:54:00.004+08:00

At here , i really want to say THANKS to you .

After saying all those things to you , i felt released and nice .

This is because i knew that you will always support me regardless of what decision i had made .

You will always be with me when i need someone

Although

I knew you are busying with own stuff

But , you still chat with me for 1 hour

I really thanks to you

!!!

latest Update 3

2010-12-11T14:52:00.003+08:00

I reaLLy Pissed Off With something noW !!!

WHo cAn LeT mE ExPresS iT FulLy ?

AnYonE aSLo can !!!

I ReallY nOt cAre Who YoU aRe

PleAse HelP mE !!!!

latest Update 2

2010-12-05T16:38:00.005+08:00

Time passed very fast , I just notice that i still left 2 more weeks to go for my holiday , then i need to back to my University Life again . First at all , i tell you all honestly , i don't have any mood or good feeling when i knew that i want to back to my university although i feel bored when i enjoy my holiday at my home . For some of my close friends , they sure knew a bit about what happened on me last semester . It makes me feel stress and pissed off when i enter my house at bangi , especially when i went back to my Bangi house one weeks ago .

However , after listening to all my friend's opinion , i really don't have any feeling on that particular person anymore . I just cant sense any " HOME" feeling at that Bangi home . Compared to last time , i was so desperate to back HOME because i can meet them , play with them and chat with them . But , after that case happened on me , all these feelings gone from my mind . I started to feel that University friend not always good as what i thought when i enter into university . It make me feel that i have a gap or a barrier between me and that person when i talk with them .

Hence , i don't want that thing happen on me anymore . Hope my mood back to normal when i enter my university .

My course-mates , you all are only thing i miss for my university life .

Hope we can be friend forever ~~~

Lonely

2010-11-28T21:42:00.002+08:00

I really not sure that the moment when i waiting for the sunset alone

is a good for me or a bad for me

Sometime

when i am alone at my own room

i will feel happy and free a bit

because i can do my favorite thing without anyone stop me at all

however

when i m alone for too long

I started to feel that loneliness is a very dangerous friend for me

It makes me feel empty

It makes me feel lonely

It makes me feel lack of love

It also makes me feel helpless

For now

I really not sure that

i m suitable for being alone or i need someone around me

This question

I can say that i cant understand it now

The answer of this question maybe just in front of my eyes

or it just hides at a very far away from me

latest Update 1

2010-11-19T00:32:00.003+08:00

As you knew about that , i am enjoying my school holiday now . However , inside my deep heart , i don't think that this is a nice holiday to me because one word can describe it out , that is " BORED" . The reason for me to say this is my holiday came so early while all of my other friends still busy on their study or exams . For another group of friends , they also busy on their activity . Hence , i just stay at home and enjoy my home time .

Some of my net friends keep on asking me why i don't go find a part time job for 1 month , but i just told them one word also , that is " LAZY" . This is because this holiday maybe is my last holiday which i still can enjoy it . When my next new semester begin , i need to busy on my thesis , lab work or assignments . After that , i need to go for industry training from May 2011 until August 2011 . Then , i need prepare for VIVA and search for a new job . If i was lucky , i would get my job at September or October 2011 . If not , i will further my study to master study .

If i want to study master , then i need to search information about my course that i need to apply and search for scholarship or loan to support my study because i don't want give my family a burden on my study .

Hence , i really need to enjoy this holiday .

To all my friends , i hope you all come back soon .

Then , we can go for drink tea , eat dim sum and have long night chat .

Finally

2010-11-04T17:18:00.002+08:00

After 4 months of hardship and challenge , My fifth semester of my university life came to an end . Today is the last day of my exam week , That is Bacaan Dalam Bahasa Cina ( Chinese Literature ) exam paper . When i finished my last word on that exam paper , i totally feel that i was released from the exam stress since two weeks ago . However , when i went back to my Bangi Home , i started to feel empty and lonely . This is maybe due to i cant meet my course-mate for a long period , or maybe due to i noticed that my degree university life is becoming to be one page of my history book .

Therefore , i really need to enjoy my last semester of my degree university life . I want to make sure it gives a good ending on my story for this chapter in my history book .

The First Challenge

2010-10-30T00:36:00.003+08:00

Two days ago , i faced to my first challenge in my first semester of my final year , that is Instrumentasi Kimia I exam paper .

At first , i really scare on this subject because i think that i totally stay at a different universe with this subject . How do i say it ? In my mind , I think that this subject is unnecessary subject for biochemist . This is because in this course , what we learnt from it is the principle for an equipment to function , like X-ray tube , detector of some equipment or some rule ( Beer Rule ) . There are nothing relevant with my course at all because what i need to do when i face to this equipment is just use it for my research , nothing above from that . When it cant function well , then i just need to call the worker to fix it up .

Talk back about this exam paper , i think i still can handle it because i also not sure what i written on the paper are the answer which the lecturer want it or not . What i can say now is i had done my best on this subject . When the result come up on December 2010 , i didn't feel any shame or guilty on it .

Hence , i need to focus on my next three papers .

Work hard my friends ~~~

Two days later

2010-10-25T16:42:00.003+08:00

Two days from 25/10 is my judgement day of this semester . For your information , i had been studying for my exam since two days ago , i can tell you that i really cant understand fully on the first subject of my exam - Instrumentasi kimia I . However , i still need to pass through it because it will influence greatly on my result . I really didn't want this kind of thing happen on me again because i suffered it from my last semester .

I can't always lose on my chemistry subjects in my university life . Why these things happen again and again on me ? Why it can let me run away from a small slit of its way ?

Maybe , i am not the lucky one who been chosen to enter this slit .

Hence , what i can do now is Study , study and study ~~~

Exam Soon !!

2010-10-21T01:42:00.003+08:00

These are the exam days of this semester for my study :

27/10 : Instrumentasi Kimia I
01/11 : Teknologi Enzim
02/11 : Bahasa Korea
04/11 : Bacaan dalam Bahasa Cina

I really hope that i can score a good result for this semester . By the way , i really hate this subject, Instrumentasi Kimia I because i really didn't know what the lecturer taught me in whole semester . It maybe a killer subject for my PNGK . However, i hope it won't be that ...

Good luck to all friend who is having or preparing their exam ... ^^

Anything went Wrong ?

2010-10-14T19:36:00.004+08:00

Few days ago , there was a huge case happen around me . This case really make me feel that my heart get broken inch by inch . This is because i never expected this thing could happen on me . When it came to me , i really can't give any reaction on it instantly . However , i did make a decision on the spot . This decision seem to be a huge breakthrough in my whole life .

For those who accompany me to pass through this hardship , i really thanks to them . Without the help from them , i sure will feel upset until can't do my own thing correctly because recently i quite busy with my presentations and lab works .

Feel good to have you all around me ~~ ^^

You all are the treasure of mine in this life ~~~

Thanks to you all ~~~

I will make sure i can get off from his influence from now ~~

I'm Busying For Nothing ....

2010-09-20T18:58:00.003+08:00

Finally , my Raya holiday came to end . For now on , i need to back my university to continue my study life . After this break , i think need to work on my poster presentation , journal writing , thesis writing , going to lab , korean stuffs and assignments . At the same time , i am learning to play guitar and have a great plan on jogging every days . Inside my deep heart , i really hope i can do all these things in a perfect way . This is because i really hope this semester is a packed semester for me . I cant stand of having a boring life at here . Hence , i am trying to make me busy , busy and busy ~~~

Please don't angry at me while i am saying i m quite free at here , especially for one of my BWG members . Forgive me ~~~

Continue next time ~~ See ya ~~

A Sudden Port Dickson Trip 2010

2010-09-14T18:06:00.014+08:00

I really didn't know why we will go to Port Dickson for our next activity . Firstly , we planned to go Sunway Lagoon , but since meimay-san didn't wan join us to enter water park , therefore Sunway lagoon trip cant be our next destination . After a long discussion , we planned to go Port Dickson because we can play a lots of things beside of playing water at beach .

I still remember that there was raining day when i woke up . My mummy keep on making joke with me about i go to beach when the raining day is around me . However , i didn't mind on it and started to fetch my friends . After fetching friend and drove for 75 minutes , we reached at Port Dickson . Then , we straight went to have lunch or breakfast ( for someone , i don't mention here, who are they) .

After listening to our Good Man , we chose a famous coffee shop as our target . I ordered half boiled eggs and bread with butter/kaya as my lunch . After having the lunch or breakfast , we planned to have a walk around town . During this journey , we found back a lots of our childhood memories because we enter a shop which sell a lot of snacks . These all snacks are our favorite snacks when we were a kid once upon a times . Hende , we sure buy a lots of thing back except ym-san . At last , we bought KCF as our meal when we reached at beach .

When we reached at beach , we played a lots of activities , like playing kite ( i didn't take picture on it , you can't see my style ) , taking photo ( main activity of all ) , playing water ( just for a while ) and our common activity - Chatting . After that , we went back to town because we wanted to go a shop called ICE ROOM . I can't believe on what i saw when i saw this shop in front of my eyes because i never think that i can find it at Port Dickson . As usual , we ordered Ice as our dessert due to hot weather at beach .

After finishing the dessert , then we went back to KL . For me , it is really a nice but tired journey for me . And maybe a nice day in my this 10 days holiday . Thanks to BWG members . Love you all .

Bored Holiday

2010-09-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

Today is the 3rd day of my 10 days holiday which started from last wednesday until next sunday . However , i started to feel bored on this holiday . This is because i no need study for my mid semester exam , i done 2 out of 3 assignments which i supposed to do during this holiday and lastly i just need to read some artikels for the coming class after the holiday . This is my holiday .

But , i still have another activity , too . For your information , i just attend my BWG gathering yesterday . I think that yesterday was one of the nice day in my current holiday because i never meet them for 2 months although we still contact each other by msn or facebook . but , we never sit together and chat together since the last gathering . So , on that day , we went to watch a movie called Step Up 3D . After that , we went for lunch and then shopping for 4 hours . Since we feel tired , therefore we went to have our dinner and discuss on the next plan for another gathering .

I really hope that the following can be organized . If not , i can make a conclusion is my holiday is a damn bored holiday . So , anyone come to date me out ~~ i am ok now ~~

Love Forever

2010-09-03T17:44:00.003+08:00

Few days ago , my friend and i went to the cinema for a movie called " Grown Up " . After finish watching this movie , we all had a conclusion that this movie is funny and worth for anyone to watch it in cinema . Just about we walked out from the exit door , I saw an incredible thing just in front of me ; A couple walked out from the exit door by holding each other hand . At this time , the gentlemen help the lady to wear the scarf in order to prevent his girlfriend get cold. After saying this , i sure all of you have a question mark in your mind because this attitude is a normal thing for a couple to do when they are together . However , what i want to tell you is an old man couple did that sweetly things in front of me .

At that moment , i feel happy to notice this , but at the same time , i feel shamed , too . This is because most of us cant do that also even we are younger than the old man couple . Just for an example , i never see my own parents done that before . Are they don't love each other so much or got other reason else ? In my mind , i think that i have the answer for it , that is maybe due to they are so busy to handle our things until they put their own things aside first . However , as their son , i really hope that they can do from now on without considering the place , the time , the situation or the people because they do love each other for 23 years . I hope they love each other for another 23 years until the end of the world .

For my own case , i really hope that i can find someone who i can hold her hand as longer as i could for my whole life . This is one of my ambitions i had . So , what is i waiting for ? Go for it ~~~ i am coming ~~

Angel & Devil

2010-08-25T19:22:00.003+08:00

Today , i really understand that there are two sides of personality of a particular person ; Angel and Devil . What i used to see in front of me is the angel side of him - nice to chat with me , sharing problem with me , play some jokes and can be a nice listener . However , when he faces to some things that related with his own benefit , then the devil side of him appears in front of me . At that moment , i really can't stand of it . Really cant stand it for another seconds .That action that he done on me , really a huge shock for me .

I think most of us sure will say that there for sure have both angel and devil side inside our mind and body . However , i want to tell you that this also depends on how devil of the devil side and how angel of the angel side from him . If the devil side of him is terrible or harmful to me , i really can forget the greatness of angel side of him and finally remember the devil side of him forever . This is why making friend is a hard job to do . It may cause you use your whole life to explore it by yourselves .

Hence , what i learn for today is a well-known saying = don't judge a book by its cover . When we make a friend , we sure know him or her deep enough to make sure he or she is worth for you to make friend with him or she . This is because there is no U-turn in a friendship or a couple relationship . What we can do is BE CAREFUL !!!!!!!!!!

1314

2010-08-22T01:37:00.003+08:00

In my opinion , i think almost all of people will know the meaning of these numbers especially for those who in relationship or in marriage status . These numbers act as a promise for the couple or a new marriage . However , not all the peoples can use these numbers to show their love to the people who they care for . At this moment , i very sure that some of my friends sure will tell me that you can say these numbers to your friends or your parents , too . But , that all things are totally different from the thing which i am saying here .

Recently , i think that i get influence from my friend , i started to feel that i lacked of something for long time ago . This feeling make me feel lonely when i m alone at everywhere although i have my roommate , housemate , course mate , close friends , and normal friends . I think i maybe lack of the another thing .

i am serious here . I really don't know what my brain think of . What the essential thing for me to continue my journey ? Friends ? i have it . Family ? i have it , too ? Money ? i think i still okay on it . Career ? I still study now , no need to worry it now . What else i lack ?

Maybe , i need YOU around me ~~

Fisherman

2010-08-17T00:39:00.004+08:00

One day , i walked along the roadside . Suddenly , i saw two ships just back from the sea and parked their ship at a particular place . To my curious , i went approached to them and wanted to see whether can buy some fresh seafood from them . However , i saw a weird phenomena when i reached at the port . I saw a fat fisherman bring a lot boxes which full with small fishes while another thin fisherman just take out one boxes which just contained two or three big fishes . When i saw this , there was a question appeared inside my mind : Why this two ships back from the same fishing area and the same time , but got huge different in their catch . In order to get an answer for my curious , i went to the thin fisherman and asked him .

Me (M) : " Why your catch was so few compared to the fat fisherman ? You all not back from the same fishing area ? "

Thin fisherman (TF) : " oh , young man . That fat fisherman and i really went to the same fishing area , but i just caught the big fish only while the fat fisherman would catch any size of the fish . So , this made why my catch was so few compared to that fisherman ."

M : " Why you didn't catch the small fish instead of just caught the big fish ? "

TF : " In my whole fishing life , my target is to catch big fish not the small fish . This is my fishing rule ."

After talking with me , the thin fisherman went to clean up ship while the fat fisherman came to me at this time .

Fat Fisherman (FF) : " You don't listen to him . He was so stubborn until he got so few catch . I remembered that he told to me before that the target of a great fisherman was to catch a big fish not this small fishes . So , he would free all the small fish he caught . i think that there was a waste for him . "

M : " but , why you follow what he done ? i saw you took out a lots of boxes which full of small fish ."

FF : " If i do the same with him , then i would not as fat as what i am now . By the way , we could not catch the big fish all the time right ? Sometime , we need to surrender to the reality . We need to survive . "

After saying the last word , the fat fisherman went back to the his ship and started his ship cleaning job .

When the fat and thin fisherman went back to their ship , I started to think about what they told to me . Inside my mind , i tried to figure out which fisherman did the correct thing . After a few minutes , i got a conclusion that both of them didn't do the wrong thing because what they aimed for is different from each other . One fisherman more to the materialistic and one fisherman more to idealistic .

Hence , we needed to have both fisherman to exist . The existing of them could let us make a comparison between them . So i think that both of them are inter-related with each other . If the thin fisherman didn't exist , then how to show the the characteristics of the fat fisherman . The same thing would happen when the fat fisherman didn't exist in front of me , how i could notice the attitude of the thin fisherman .

After thinking this much , i finally reached my house and had a nice dinner with my family . However , i still guess the same thing will happen on the two fisherman for the next day if there are no much thing changes between them . Do you think so ?

Ice Room

2010-08-13T02:05:00.013+08:00

My University Friends and me went to Ice Room Bandar Baru Bangi to have a dinner and have a birthday Party of my coursemate , Carmen Gui . These are some of the dishes and desserts we ordered at this Shop ~~

Spaghetti With Smoked Duck Meat

Chicken Chop

Spaghetti With Black Pepper Chicken

Mango Snow Ice

Sesame Snow Ice

Durian Snow Ice

Sweet Potato Snow Ice

The food at here quite nice to eat ~~~ But , i think its Snow Ice dessert is worth to try it out ~~ If not , you will lose a wonderful dessert in your life .....

This shop can be found in : LoT 10 ( HU TO ) , Cheras Shamelin , Bandar Baru Bangi , Kajang

Anyway , I say another Happy Birthday to my coursemate , Carmon GUI ~~~

Within a Second

2010-08-09T18:44:00.003+08:00

In my own way of thinking , i think that there is a lot of things can happen within a second . For example , a super star can be killed in the next second , a new born baby has just arrived into this new world or a wonderful moment like aurora can appear in our sky . There are still have so many possibility for a special case to appear in our life .

Take me as an example , I can be a good friend with a guy or a girl for a long time . However , when he or she does something that i most hated , then they will be my new enemy in the next second i go on . It just takes you about the time for you to close your eyelid . But it can make this thing happens in front of me immediately . So , how important of a second to us !!

Take another point of view , when you are confusing about few seconds when you do your assignment , we will think that it is normal case for us because we still have a lots of few seconds behind us . However , if a doctor confuses about what he supposed to do during an operation , he will make the patient lose his opportunity to view this world anymore . Hence , same value of the time we have , but there is a huge difference between them when a different people hold it .

Hence , we need to know the value of the time .

TiMe >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> GolD

get it ?

War Is ComIng .....

2010-08-05T22:20:00.002+08:00

I have a prediction here :

" Start from next week , my life will full with all these things -Books , Journals , Laptop , Reference Materials . After that , i will stuck in my laboratory , busy on my saliva and GCF experiment until this October 2010 because this is the dateline for us to finish my work . In order to make sure that we are not looked down by some people , we need to rush for it , work on it , pass all the data to them on time and then finish our work . "

This is my prediction of my life on this month , August 2010 . I hope i can make it wonderful and meaningful for me ~~ Please make sure that i can look important on it ~~

Emptiness

2010-07-27T00:26:00.003+08:00

Recently , i always go out with my University Friends for sing k session , shopping and watch movie . All i want is to make my life full of activity . However , i still feel empty and lonely after doing all these things . I think that this maybe due to there are some remarkable things happened on me few weeks ago . This change make me feel that i am losing some part of life into a wide universe . There is another possibility for me to behave like this is that i still not suite into my present life . I still need more time to overtake this feeling from me .

At the same time , I understand that there are something exist where i cant get back payback although i done a lots of hard works on it . Hence , i will accept it . Just let the time be my companion for this time ~~~~~~~

Free From Pain

2010-07-25T01:03:00.003+08:00

Finally , I really can free from pain .

It make me feels that i am living at hell world .

It make me feels that i am drinking poison everyday .

It make me feels that i am attacked by hundred of sword .

It make me feels that i am sitting on a chair with a lots of needles .

At last , it free from me ~~~

I hope it will disappear from my mind ~~~

Back to University ~~~

2010-07-14T20:19:00.002+08:00

It seem a great thing for me to re-enter to University because i no need work as part-timer any more , i can meet up with my beloved university friend and the most important thing is i can escape from my own "cage " As usual , i am busying on registering my course - to make sure i can get the nice and suitable timetable for this semester . However , there is a difference compared to last four semester , that i need to prepare my final year project starting from this semester until my last semeter . If i look on the surface of this final year project , it seem a huge project for me to overcome it , but i realy hope i can handle it well since i want to graduate from this university with a better result !

On the Other hand , i also need to prepare myself for the coming disaster and trap in my life . So , i need to make sure i m full armored with the best armor equipments ! if i done it well , what else i scare of ? Hence , let meet me !!!

Thanks

2010-06-30T23:02:00.003+08:00

Finally , i finished my part timer job which i worked at a account firm . During this 1 and half months , i really learned a lots of lesson and somethings that learn from my normal study at University .

I can feel the toughness as an accountant during the peak period . Work by Work are coming to you , make you cant have any second to have a small break when you are rushing to finish your job .

At the same time , they organized a small but meaningful farewell party for me . They bought a cake with some words : HAPPY BIRTHDAY on it . They all laugh at the person who bought it because i told them about my birthday of 22 years old had passed one months ago . This make the situation become a warm and full of joy environment for my farewell . Inside my heart , i really touched because this cake is the first of Birthday cake in this year . So , i will consider this party is part of my birthday memory - A Birthday Party with my New Friend .

Anyway , i really want to say thank you to them . Although we can stay together as last time , but i still will remember you all ......

Welcome back

2010-06-23T18:42:00.004+08:00

Welcome Back ....

I think i don't update my blog for a long time due to some personal excuses . Hence , i supposed to have a lot of my own experience to share with all my friends who care on me .... There are some new experiences that i owned in this two months .

I am suffering a huge pain from tooth pain ... I really don't know why i have to suffer from this pain ... I think the Growth of my " Intelligent Tooth " may cause this of kind of pain on me ... I really hate on it ....
I am working at An Accountant Firm for this 2 months . At here , i learned how to open an account , how to count the taxes that the client supposed to pay to LDHN and more . It is a great experience for me since i m a science student .
I get married in the early of June ... Detail about this , i feel sorry because i cant share at here .. i will explain it in front of you all ... Hehe ....

These are some of my experience during this two months .. i will tell you about all the special cases on the next post ...

Guy Talks

2010-05-02T19:14:00.002+08:00

Three days ago , i had a nice talk with one of my guy friends at mamak stall Bangi . During the talk , i shared a lot of my things to him , and he also told me a lot of his story . And the story that we discussed and talk about is a secret between us . No ones can knows except you are special case !

It is really a good way for me to express my feeling for this semester since i don't have a good listener where he has one . Within this semester , a burden of things happen around me . It makes me feel that there is Boeing 747 staying on my shoulder . My concentration , my energy , my time and more , they can't work on their best way until my exam just around the corner , i still cant fix it out .

I really want to say thanks to him . Because of his present on that night , i feel that i have a good ending for my last semester of my Second Year . Really thanks alot ....

And who is he ?

let you all guess on it !

A reminder for that right people doesn't give any clue , ok ?

At last , thanks a lot to you ...

Exam period final part

2010-04-30T14:53:00.002+08:00

Finally , i finished my Second Semester of my Second Year in UKM . When i put my last answer sheet ( OMR form ) into a box , i know that i am free from the next second of it . I totally feel released and pleasure because i can finish my all the exams within these three hell-liked weeks . At that moment , i really want to say thank you to all my friends who accompany me all the way from the first day of this semester until yesterday ( i just say it deep inside my heart ) . In reality , i just keep on asking them about how to celebrate this wonderful period .

At this moment , i really don't want to give much comments on the last three papers . I just give a simple description :

Gene Expression : The question style more a least the same with the mid semester exam . Just i feel luckily because there are tutorial question come out at final exam question . For the student who attend the tutorial class like me , i have some bonus for it . So , i hope i can score it although it is 2 credit unit course ( help me 2 cover back )
Immunology : For this paper , since there are a lots of chapter inside this course , therefore the question will cover few chapter only . For example , there are 3 lecturers for this course . The 1st lecturer part come out in objective section and one 15M essay ( topic cover 2 out of 11 chapters ) , the 2nd lecturer part come out at two 10M essays ( topic cover 1 out of 8 chapter. ) and the last lecturer part come out structural question ( 25M ) and objective section ( topic cover 3 out of 8 chapters ) . So , i think i still can handle it , but maybe cant score . Depend on other aspect .
Persekitaran dan Kesihatan ( Environment and health ) : This is a U3 paper . So , it just a 60 objective questions paper . In this paper , i think about 50 out of 60 question are past year question . So , i think i can score this paper . My assignment part ( 40 % ) will determine whether i can get a A's o not !

After that , my second year second semester of my university life is gone ! From next semester , i will busy for my degree final work . I really hope that i can pass through it and move more closer to my dream .

Let iT bE

2010-04-25T19:44:00.003+08:00

After 2 weeks of exam , my study mode become more to inactivated mode . I din know why i become like tat . Just like now , although i have a exam on 2moro 12pm and i put my notes in front of me , but i really no mood to read it . This maybe due to the poor Exam battle history in previous weeks make me started to hesitate that it is worth for me to continue work on it .

Recently , i met my secondary school senior through facebook . I noticed that he works as Pastry chef . When i knew that , it make me think back what is my dream work in the future . Tell you all the truth , i think that i really started feel regret on my decision about entering university . This feeling appear in my mind when i entered my Second semester . However , at that moment , i just neglect that feeling and make a assumption that it will disappear from my mind soon . After gone through about 1 year , that feeling does not disappear from my mind ,but it becomes stronger days after days .

I recall back my dream work list in my mind , that is Doctor ( i cant achieve it due to my academic result and my hand shaking problem ) , Pharmacist ( cant achieve it due to academic result , financial problem ) , and lastly i want to become a Pastry Chef . I really love to make dessert and bread . I love to read the recipe book in the book store or watch the cooking programme . So i think i like cooking , too . When i help my mum to make a fried rice , i will decorate it until my mum will scold me about why i so late to serve the fried rice to her . I think this maybe the my natural side that i don't notice on it since i communicate with the community .

For now , what i do now is just to graduate from my degree and continue my master study ! And this dream work , i will make it become a reality for me when the opportunity is approaching to me !

Ais Kacang Puppy Love

2010-04-23T02:00:00.004+08:00

I just went to watch this movie with my housemates at Leisure Mall , Cheras . The reasons for me to watch it is i get some good comments from my other friends and the characters inside the movie . After finish watching it , i think that it is worth for us to pay RM 10 for a ticket .

Inside the movie , i think that the storyline of this movie will make us refresh back about the first love we had last time ! How shy we are when we want to tell the people we loved about that MAGIC THREE WORDS ! At the same time , there are some scenes in the movie really make me laugh until my stomach feel pain . For example :

Rotiman : " kamu buta geh ? tengok jalan lah ! "

Botak's sister : " kamu yang buta ! badan saya besar macam ini , kamu tak nampak geh ? "

These conversation really make me laugh until no voice come out from my mouth .

Beside that , it really a Malaysian style movie ! The way they talk , the way they act and the cloth style they wear really make me feel funny and got "home" feeling , especially Gary and Ping Guan really sacrifice a lots for this movie .

In conclusion , it is a good movie for us to have a ticket to watch inside the cinema !

SURE SUPPORT YOU !

The Vampire Diaries

2010-04-21T22:18:00.006+08:00

Recenty , i started to watch a new English drama series - The Vampire Diaries since the other three drama series - Heroes ( season end ) , Ghost Whisperer ( always delay ) and Merlin ( season end ) . The reason for me to watch this drama series is due to a movie called " Twilight " because these two are talking about the love story between a vampire and a human . However , there are some differences between them .

First at all , in the movie series " Twilight " , they talk about the battle between the vampire and the werewolf . However , in the drama series " the Vampire dairies " , they talk about the battle among the vampire and some relationship with the witch . Secondly , In " Twilight " , the vampire cannot show themselves under the sun . However , in " the vampire diaries " , some of them especially the two main characters - Stefan and Damon can act like normal being , walk under sun because they got a special ring with them . Beside that , in " twilight " , the vampire cannot control or change people's mind , however , in " the vampire Diaries " , they can do that .
In " the vampire Diaries " , the use of verveine will cause them weak and lost their ability to control mind compared to "Twilight " , they don't have this .

About the storyline , the male main character - Stefen is a vampire . He is a 17 year old high school student . However , his actual age is 126 years sold . He falls in love with a human girl called Elena .. When they have a wonderful time , Stefan's brother , Damon appears in front of him . Damon fell interested at Elena because Elena look the same with Katherine , Damon and Stefan's first lover who died for long time . Since Stefan does not feed withe human blood while his brother does , therefore Stefan is weaker than Damon . Stefan try his best to protect Elena from Damon' influence . Soon , Elena found that Stefan is vampire . So , what happens the next , please watch it yourself !

I think when i first watch the drama series , i really expect it look like the " Twilight " . However , after few episodes , it does make me change my view on it . For now , i look this drama series as a different thing from " Twilight " . I hope that it will keep giving me surprise ! work hard .

Exam period part 2

2010-04-20T20:24:00.004+08:00

Today , i just finish my 4th papers - Separation Method , half way from the time that i m free . I need to prepare for my 5th paper which i will face it on 22th April 2010 . But , i need to share somethings about the last 2 paper that i took in this week , that is Penulisan dalam Bahasa Cina and kaedah Pemisahan ( Separation Method ) .

When i read through the question paper of the Penulisan Dalam Bahasa Cina , i got another heart attack since the first one occur when i took the Clinical Biochemistry paper ! I totally don't understand why there are 2 essay questions in this paper . Last time , i still remember that lecturer told us that there was 1 comprehensive text and 1 essay to write . Why now got 2 essays to write and 1 comprehensive text to answer ? And the exam time still in 2 hours only . I think the lecturer want to test our writing speed , just like a mini game in Facebook ! Since i at this kind of situation , what i need to do is maximize my writing speed until it reach its limit in order to finish it in time ! thanks god ..

The next paper is Separation Method paper . For this paper , i totally agreed that i don't look important on it especially the part of distillation . When i read the question that relevant with the distillation part , i totally don't understand what the question want from me ! So , as usual , i gave up that particular question ! However , when i left the exam hall and have small discussion with my course-mate , she told me that the question that i don't answer well is almost the same with the note we had . At this moment , i really want to kill myself . Fortunately , i am not that kind of people ! Another part of question , i still can handle it especially Dr. Musa's part ! Thanks for his kindness . Hope he can give a good mark to me !

This is all about what i feel on this two papers ! Hope i can handle the next 4 papers . Work Smart , donaldlkk !

Exam period part 1

2010-04-19T19:31:00.005+08:00

Today is the second week of my exam week . For this moment , i just took 3 papers out of total 8 papers that i supposed to take it . However , i don't see a bright future on the next 5 papers because i think i done badly on my first 3 papers . I really don't know why i could done so badly since i done my revision one weeks before my exam week . Let me talk about the worst among these three papers , that is Clinical Biochemistry .

Before i took this exam , i just think that all the questions will relevant with the diseases only , like Nephrotic syndrome , hypoglycemia , krioglobulinemia and more . But , when i opened the exam paper and read through it , i found that i need to answer the question like this : Explain the synthesis of norepinephrine and epinephrine from amino acid , thyroxine . At that moment , i totally get shocked on it . Why we need to remember this thing . Does these things useful for us when talk with our client ? I think that if i was the patient , i would not want to know about it because i am totally outsider for me . In my deep heart , i will say that as a medical officer , you just need to tell me what is health problem i have , then this is good enough for me .

By the way , all my answers in the answer paper is in BAHASA MELAYU . I really don't understand what the higher officer in my faculty think about it . They don't think there is a problem for them because they just teach and mark the paper . For a student like us , we need to memorize all the scientific term in BAHASA MELAYU . At the same time , all the reference books we had is in BAHASA ENGLISH . So , we need to do another work , that is GOOGLE TRANSLATE . what the hell man ? On the other hand , some of lecturers quite good for us , too . They knew that we lack of reference , so they prepared the notes in BAHASA MELAYU to reduce our work . I really appreciate on their work . However , one particular lecturer is too lazy to do ! She just taught us and make some joke until finish the syllabus in the simple without giving us any notes . She just told us that go to library and search the book named " Endrocrinology " . Wah , you think that this information is enough for us ! You really a good lecturer ! I cant give you any comment on it ! let other do it for you !

This just a small part of a aisberg liked problem . I tell you all about another story on next post . I need to study for my tomorrow paper - another paper in BAHASA MELAYU !

乐观

2010-04-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

瞧瞧，这就是一个小人物的半生历程，每一步都遭遇坎坷，每一步都注满艰辛。如果不是一个童年伙伴的提醒，我几乎要在最近一次打击里消沉下去。他是一个农夫，地道的文盲，这一年，稻谷歉收，事实上，这一年他吃苦最大，流汗最多，也有掩饰不住的伤悲，但是他说：“再歉收，也得把谷子打上去，算算收成，选好明年的种。”

是啊，再艰辛的人生，也有成功的地方，总结它，发扬它，不就是找到了今后的希望吗？这样想着，我突然发现自己还有另一份简历：

9岁争取复学成功。

11岁再度复学，出色完成小学学业。

13岁插班补考，再进初中。

16岁考取县重点中学。

19岁报考大学成功。

24岁在《星火》发表处女作。

看到这份简历，我不禁想起以前的一点一滴。我想起我以前如何哀求我的父母让我去学校上课。经不起我再三要求，他们也只好答应我，但首要条件是他们要求我每天放学后，就要马上到田里去帮忙。到了晚上，我才可以去做我的功课，温习作业和准备明天的课程。不但如此，因为家里当时还没有灯，我也只好在我的墙壁上凿开了一个小洞，让隔壁家的灯光作为我的临时桌灯。这样的生活足足陪伴了我的整个童年。我想到这里时，我自己也不晓得在那种艰辛的生活情况之下，那时的我到底是怎样活下去的。所以，我也对那样的我有了一丝丝尊敬的念头起来。

看到16岁那部分时，我就想起我在初中时所做的疯狂举动了。那时的我真的是一个名副其实的书呆子。为什么我会这样说我自己呢？那是因为就连学校里倾国倾城的校花都主动向我示好时，我竟然也不皱一点眉头就把她拒绝到门外。当然，在先决条件下，我也是在学校数一数二的大帅哥，再加上优异的成绩。当然，会有不少的仰慕者。所以说，当时的我可算是名副其实的万人迷。不然，那位校花会看上我吗？现在想起来，如果当时我没有拒绝她的话，现在有可能是一位让身边朋友都羡慕的女朋友。那就不会像现在这样，单身寡佬呆在房间里，伤心着和回想着陈年旧事啦！

想着想着，我的脑海就闪出了另一个画面。我记得那时的我还是一名大二生。最让人不可思议的事发生在其中一堂文学课中，我竟然在一旁睡觉了，而且最尴尬的是我睡觉时的打呼声可比一头肥猪那样得响亮。就是因为这样，我才被教授叫了起来，而且还问我一道让人都觉得简单到极点的问题。当时的我是因为被教授那洪亮的声音才醒了过来的，我想也没想就破口回答说：“刘子阳”。顿时，课堂上的所有同学就择腹大笑起来，而我还是一直处在摸不着头脑的情况，到底他们在笑什么。虽然如此，我还是坚决觉得我的答案是对的，因为教授在问我的名字啊！当我回头看教授时，我发现教授的脸上爆了许多的青筋。我就马上回头骂我的同学，并喝止他们别再笑了，因为教授已经怒发冲冠了。就在这一煞那，我好像觉得我的背后有一股寒意迅速地侵蚀着我的五感。接下来，教授就大声地说：“刘子阳，请你在放学过后来找我。”就这样，我就被教授罚留堂了，而且可笑的是我竟然在几天之后才知道我犯错的原因。原来，教授在问我：“谁是《白杨礼赞》的作者？”

想到这里，我的嘴角也不禁微微地上扬起来了。就在我还在陶醉中，电话突然响了起来，就这样把我从回忆中拉回来了。听完了这通电话后，我马上梳洗一番准备出门，正因为我的美好未来还在等着我。但是当我刚开门出去时，这时我才回头一想，我到底在什么时候有写过这份简历呢？

迷惘

2010-04-12T23:32:00.004+08:00

我的大学生活已经快要两年了。但是对现在的我来说，过去所发生的一切还是会让我觉得很陌生，很模糊，与很可怕的。

不知道是不是我自己的人生观出了什么问题。

我还记得在我的中五生活快要结束时，我对我自己说：“你要改变！你要改变！”这些的改变就造就了“现在的我”！可是我也不知道是否有人会感觉到我的这些改变。

随着年龄的成长，我对现在的我的要求越来越放肆了。放肆到一个无可理喻的地步了。我也对这样的我没有任何的办法了。

所以，就让我一直迷惘下去吧！

天真？

2010-04-01T19:29:00.002+08:00

小港机场下完了客人，运气不错，又有人拦车。

我偷偷地端详了这位小姐，不很美，但五官分明。两排长睫毛像围着湖泽的小丛林；弧形分明的双唇，很有个性地紧抿着……

“民生医院。”抛下了目的地，便合上了眼，斜倚在后座，似乎很累很累。我扳下了车资表，比平时更专心地开汽车来。说也奇怪，忍不住从反射镜，多看她几眼，但我不能看得太勤，免得让她误会我心有不轨。

车行一半，我在镜中，竟然看到她潸潸泪下，就像一枝带雨梨花，惹得我有说不出来的怜爱。

“探病吗？小姐。”本不应该向乘客多舌的。

“……”拭干了泪水，她轻轻地点头。

“病情如何？”该死！问这干嘛？开几年车，最痛恨的，就是一上车叽碴不停的乘客。今天自己中了什么邪？搭这个什么讪？万一……

就在我刚问完这个问题时，我就看到她就再一次从包包里拿出纸巾来，向自己的脸颊抹干眼泪。然后就说：“我的妈妈因为肝病而进了医院。所以，我刚从外地赶回来看她的。”

真的是一个孝女啊！在这个社会风气腐败的社会中，让我遇见这样的孝女，真的是百年一见的“宝物”。所以，我就抱着一颗怜悯之心安慰她起来了。

“不会有事的。你放心，像你这样的孝女，一定会好人有好报的。不用顾虑那么多啊！马上就到医院啦！”

不知道是不是听到我这番的安慰后，我觉得她的心中的那块石头好像放下来的感觉。微微的笑容也可以从她的脸上看得出来。过了没多久，她啪一啪我的肩旁，就说到：

“谢谢你的安慰。你这一番话真的让我放心许多。说实在的，在我从外地回来的这段路程中，我仿佛能感觉到我的心跳声像一架扩音器那样，它的声音是多么地响亮和清晰在我耳边围绕着。”

听到这里，我真的觉得她很担心她妈妈的病情。所以，我也得赶快送她到医院去，以便拯救一个受苦的灵魂。我马上踩尽我车的油门，加快速度到达目的地。同时，我也注意到我的时速表已经超过一般的标准时速，但是为了她，为了她的妈妈，我也不管三七二十一了，硬着头皮地冲向医院去。

过了十分钟，我已经把她安全地送到医院门外。这时，我才回头想回去，我刚才是不是太冲动了？为了一个萍水相逢女人，我竟然违背我多年来的原则，不可驾快车。但是事情也过去了，我想还是算了吧！有了这个决定后，我就会回头说：

“小姐，谢谢你的光顾，车资总共是三百六十八元。”

说到这里，我竟然发现我车的后座已经了目一空，那位小姐已经不见了。这时，我慌张了起来，因为她还没付我车资。但是我心想回去，可能她太急去看她妈妈，一时忘记付车资而已。所以，我就把车泊在一旁，就朝着医院的方向走过去。

进医院后，我马上向柜台的护士小姐询问一下。

“请问一下，刚才有没有一位穿着一身白色衣服的小姐进了这间医院说要去探望她患了肝病的母亲。我想知道她的病房在那里吗？我要向她拿车资。”

让我惊奇的是那位护士好像一头雾水一样，好像根本不知道我在说什么那样。

“先生，刚才到现在，我都没有察觉有一位向您说那样的小姐问我关于她母亲的事。请先生确认过后，再找我吧！先生，还有什么事我可以帮您吗？”

当我听到这里，我的心情就好像掉到一个无底洞一样，那么地无奈，那么地无助。我觉得在这个世上没有任何事情可以符合我现在的心情。

“没有了。谢谢你，护士小姐。”

就这样，我就一个人回到我的车上去。在我的心中，还不时在烦恼着到底发生了什么事呢！

茅草山一日游

2010-03-28T00:53:00.003+08:00

当我的眼睛打开过后，我发现我的四周围还是漆黑一片。我马上拿起我的手机看了一看时间，原来现在还是凌晨三点二十分，比我设定的闹钟还早了十分钟之多呢。我试着睡多那十分钟，但是我无法办到。所以，我只好爬起床来，去冲凉去了。当我冲完凉后，我马上去泡一杯茶，在我的电脑桌前，看着我喜爱的小叮当，顿时让我可以好好享受这短暂的宁静。过了二十分钟后，我就冲进我的房间去叫醒我的朋友起床了，因为我们将要迟到了。我想你们会觉得很好奇为什我们要那么早起身吧！为了不打扰大家的时间，我就不妨告诉大家，我们要去爬茅草山。

在我接二连三的进攻之下，我的朋友也从睡梦中苏醒了。在他梳洗一番过后，我们终于可以出发了。过了没多久，我的朋友也到达集合地点。在一个简单的讨论过后，我们也开车去我们的最终目的地-茅草山。

大约二十五分钟过后，我们就到达我们的目的地了。当我们把车灯关了过后，我们就发现我们四周围变得漆黑一片，顿时让我们觉得这里变得很阴森。这个情形就好比如果我面前有一名绝世美女，我也无法看得到她那样。再加上因为当时还是凌晨五点多，所以我们的身边还是一个人也没有。在这些的情景之下，就好比我们成为了惊悚片上的男女主角。在没有任何办法之下，我们只好依赖我们仅有的一只手电筒和我们的手机上的灯了。

在我们上山的路途中，我们根本无法欣赏路上的任何景物与风景，因为实在太暗了。但是在路途中，还是有一些事让人更值得去注意的，那就是上山的路真的太“完美”和身边的声音都让人觉得浑身发冷与发抖的。就因为这样，我们都粘在一起上山了。大约爬了三十分钟的山路，我们终于到达了第一个山峰了。在这里，我们都觉得这天晚上实在太美了，因为我们多了很多很多的“新朋友”在陪伴着我们。它们都在天上一闪一闪地为我们加油，为我们祝福和不让我们觉得任何的寂寞。同时，我们也感觉这个城市的夜景也很不错。我们都看到那些灯像天上的星星也在一闪一闪地移动中，让人觉得它们好像有生命一般地劳动着。

大概休息了十分钟后，我们就继续我们的征山之旅。就在我们快要接近第二山峰时，我们都发现在我们后面的登山客也快要追上我们了。这个情形很严重地打击我们的信心与动力。但是当我与我的男性朋友发现后头有美女的出现，顿时让我们两个人精神满足，冲劲十足。我们那么突然的举动却被我们身边的女性朋友狠狠地骂了一顿，说我们什么见到美女，我们的眼睛好像发亮一样。在她们的打打闹闹过后，我们也顺利地到达第二峰，第三峰和最后的第四峰。

在第四峰拍了登顶照后，我们就马上下山去。在我们下山的路途中，我们才可以欣赏刚才那些我们无法看到的风景。这时，我们看到有许多的茅草在这里随风飘动，让人觉得它们正在跳舞给我们看一样。然后，阵阵的花香也随着风伯伯的帮助传进我们的鼻子，让我们感受到花儿活泼的一面。在这些景物的称托之下，我们仿佛像一名天女那样自由自在地问风起舞起来。除此之外，空气的清新让我们的疲惫远离了我们，都觉得身体都轻飘在这个人间仙境。

就在这些东西的陪伴之下，我们也很快地到达山脚了。到了这里，我们觉得好象从仙境回到人间一样，因为我们的肚子都发起抗议的声音起来了。所以，我们就向我们下一个目标前进了。

希望

2010-03-26T00:35:00.003+08:00

人往往是因为有了对未来抱着希望而活下去。一名穷人会抱着明天会发横财而艰辛地度过接下来的每一分钟。而一名有钱人的话，他们就会抱着自己可以多活几天又或者多几年就更好了。但是，在这个现实的世界里，到底有多少几率发生这些事件呢？我想也不到百分之一吧! 但是，人还是要坚持抱着它而活下去，作为他们生活的原动力。

而我也是他们的一部分吧！我明明知道那件事很难成事的。可能因为我本身的问题，又或者其他方面的问题，让我觉得它是多么虚幻，多么地飘浮不定，和多么与我格格不入的。但是，我还是把头深深地埋进深坑里。所以，我还是那句话，自作孽自作受吧！

说谎

2010-03-20T12:55:00.004+08:00

最近，我觉得我自己真的是不折不扣的说谎精。

为什么我不能够把我心中的话一五一十地把它说出来呢？

我真的觉得很痛苦，又伤身。

每一次与它碰面，谈天，开玩笑 ......

我都以一个“虚假的我”来面对它。

这让我的心里有了不平衡的辨识。

到底“现在的我”是我？

还是那个“虚假的我”是我？

又或者“两个的我”都不是我？

而是“真正的我”还在沉睡中呢？

可能到头来，还是我自己一直向我说谎。

让我不想认定“本来的我”！

家书

2010-03-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

在每一天我回家的路途中，我总会在一个地方停留一下。不是因为有一位绝世美女在那里等我，而是有一位年近八十岁的老婆婆总会在同一个地方那里呆着。情况已持续了一个多月了。无论当天是天气晴朗，还是狂风暴雨。我不时想了又想，她是不是在等待一个人的到来呢？如果是真的话，这样的现象已经让我想起了“望夫石”。当我看到她的身影，就感觉到一丝丝的忧愁在缠绕着她，我看了不禁也替她的丈夫担心起来。

因为我心中种种的疑问，让我每天时不时就想起那位老婆婆的情况，在担心她是否有染病吗。同时，我也很期待她丈夫归来的情景，因为那是这位老婆婆的辛苦与耐心所换取的礼物。当他回来时，我他们重逢后的那一幕，老婆婆与老公公是否会眼泪满脸，又或者他们只是紧紧地抱在一起。这些想象与期待都成为我脑海每天必做的事情了。所以，在每天的回家的路途中，我还是会像平时一样停留一下，看一看这个我心中的“望夫石”是否还在那里。

过了没几天，我就带着一些棉衣去老婆婆那里，并打算给老婆婆用的。因为最近的天气已经转凉了，所以我害怕老婆婆因此而着凉。当我到达那里时，一个让我惊讶的情形出现在我的眼前，那就是老婆婆已经倒在地上了。这个时候，我不管三七二十一就跑向着老婆婆的方向跑过去，然后抱起婆婆，送她去附近的医院去。到了医院后，我也马上打电话给我的妈妈，并叫她过来，因为她对这些事情比较在行。

妈妈的到来好像替我打了一只强心针。在等待老婆婆从急症室出来时，我就问起妈妈是否知道关于老公公的联络方式。但是，妈妈给我的答案竟然是老婆婆的丈夫已经在很多年前因病而去世。我马上把我在这个多月看到的点点滴滴告诉了妈妈，而且还说出我对这件事的看法。就在这个时候，妈妈的双手轻轻地放在我的脸颊上，并向我说，其实那个老婆婆患上老人痴呆症。她已经忘记了近二十年所发生的事情，这也包括老公公去世的事实。所以，她还是停留在她三四十岁的那个时空。在那个时候，她每天都在那个地方等着老公公回家。

当我听到这里，我的眼眶有了不少的泪珠。就在这个时候，老婆婆从急症室出来。医生说老婆婆只是得了一些感冒与轻微的发烧而已，但是还是要住院一天以方便观察。医生说完后，妈妈就与护士去办住院手续，而我陪着老婆婆进病房去。到了病房，老婆婆就吩咐我到那里去通知老公公她住院了，没有办法去那里等他。虽然，我知道老公公已经去世了。但是，我还是硬着头皮出去一下。在那时候，我的脑袋闪了一闪，想到一个可以帮老婆婆的方法了。

在我回到老婆婆的身边时，我就拿出一封信出来，并告诉老婆婆，这是老公公给她的一封“家书”。在家书中，老公公提到他要去一个很远的地方工作，叫老婆婆不用在那里等他。而且，他会每一个月寄一封家书回家的，要叫老婆婆在家等家书。当我念到这里时，老婆婆已经哭得稀里哗啦起来了，而且还把我抱了起来。这时的我也像老婆婆一样哭了起来。过了一阵子，老婆婆向我说声谢谢，因为我把这封“家书”带给她。

第二天，老婆婆就出院了。我与妈妈送老婆婆回家，并吩咐老婆婆在家等家书，不要到外面等老公公了。老婆婆答应我们，而且还说了很多次的谢谢，让我们不好意思极了。

每一个月我都会写一封家书给老婆婆。而老婆婆看了也很开心。写“家书”的习惯持续了整整一年多，直到老婆婆去世。在老婆婆的丧礼里，老婆婆的亲人给了我一封信，说是老婆婆临终前写给我的。在那封信中，老婆婆说了很多东西：

谢谢你这些年来的陪伴，其实我已经知道那些家书都是你写的，并且我也知道我的老公已经去世的事实。虽然如此，我还是很谢谢你，因为你写的那些“家书”已经成为我精神上的支柱了。当我每一次收到家书时，那种快乐与期待的心情真的让我觉得很温暖。所以，虽然我明明知道那些家书是假的，我还是恨欣然地收下。谢谢你，你真的是一个有善心的小孩。

看到这里，我的眼泪也不知觉地流了下来。

What can i say ?

2010-03-10T00:40:00.002+08:00

Do you think i want to make this decision ?

I don't suddenly have this move if you don't force me to do that .

Since you say it out , what can i say now ?

What i say at there , got its meaning ?

I think no more use ...

So , i better keep my mouth shut up ..

And do my things alone ...

Merlin .

2010-03-05T20:36:00.009+08:00

Merlin is a British television drama series that began in 2008. It is loosely based on the Arthurian legends of the mythical wizard Merlin and his relationship with Prince Arthur, but differs significantly from traditional versions of the legend. Produced by independent production company Shine Limited for BBC One, the programme was designed to run in the same Saturday evening family drama slot as other UK series such as Doctor Who and Robin Hood. The second series began airing on 19 September 2009. On The Paul O'Grady Show, Colin Morgan announced the third series will be made. The BBC confirmed this in a press release on 3 December 2009.

Recently , i really very like this drama series . Maybe , this series talks about on the magic , mystery creature and knight . These all features i cant find from other drama series . It makes me fell interesting while i watched it . I don't fell bored or the feeling of wasting time come out from my mind ... Hence , i want to introduce to you all this drama series .

无聊中....

2010-02-25T21:40:00.005+08:00

无聊。。真无聊。。。

好想找事来做啊。。。

读书？逛街？看戏？还是 XXXXX ？

虎年来了。。

2010-02-14T00:53:00.001+08:00

新年快乐

我要说声新年快乐给所有我认识的人。。

无论是一面之缘，还是旧同事，又或者我的同学朋友，，，

我通通祝你们，虎年行大运，像一只老虎一样，那么地威武与勇敢。

勇敢去追求你的情人，梦想，理想与幸福。。。

新年，新希望！！！！

一场空

2010-02-09T22:56:00.002+08:00

我做了那么多的努力与付出，

到头来，还是一场空。

我也不知道我的下一步该有什么了?

是前进？

是原地不动？

还是倒退呢？

我想我还是原地不动吧。

真的需要时间来做我的良伴。

时间，您愿意吗？

真的好想您在我的身边。

终点

2010-02-05T23:54:00.007+08:00

到底终点会在那里出现？

我真的很需要你的帮助！

没有你的存在，我的世界就没有意义了。

我真的希望你可以来到我的面前。

把我从现在的一切带到你的身边！

我真的很累了。

终点，你在何方？

称赞

2010-01-24T16:21:00.003+08:00

“你好乖，嘉强！”

“为什么你那么聪明，我的宝贝孩子？”

如果这些“称赞”给小时候的我听到的话，我想我会不自觉地开心整个星期。在那时候，得到人家的称赞，我就会觉得我是与从不同的小孩。所以，我一直很努力地从人家口中得到我要的称赞。
但是，当我渐渐地长大时，我就开始发觉我想要的称赞已经变质了。它已经不是我以前所憧憬的那个它了。在我眼里，“称赞别人”这个举动已经变成一个手段，一个可以讨好他人，奉承他人，又或者利用他人的法门罢了。这些东西是有证据来证明的。在我看到很多很多的例子当中，我看到许多的父母往往只是要顾着自己的面子，无论孩子是否做对事情，就盲目地“称赞”自己的孩子。这样的行为我也不知道是帮了他，还是害了他。而称赞他们的意义在那？同时，我自己也有这样的经历。有一些人往往为了要讨好我或者要在我身边讨好处，他们就使用九牛二虎之力，不停地称赞我，说崇拜我。然而，这些的“称赞”不是因为我的杰出与努力而从他们口中说出来的。所以，所谓的称赞是要这样的吗？

到了现在，称赞到底还有它原有的意义吗？又或者它也是像其他东西一样进过时代的进步而进化成新的一门知识了？这个，我也无法给你一个正确的答案。但是，无论它是否成了陌生的它，在我的脑海里，由始到终我还是觉得它的存在也只有那一个，那就是推动我前进的一部引擎与我努力的见证。

三思而后行

2010-01-21T19:48:00.006+08:00

不知道为什么，最近对这些所谓的成语，名言与谚语有了一定的了解与感触。今天，我就对这句“三思而后行”有了更深入的体会。想起来，我以前做什么事或说什么都没有经过我的大脑先，就从我的口中说出来或有那样的举动。在当时的我，真的没有觉得那时的一句话可以有这样的效果。现在的我不时想起来，连我自己也无法想象这么的一句话可以从我的口中出现。所以，我想我得罪了很多很多人。可是，当你做错一个决定时，这个错误的决定往往不只让你得罪人家之外，也会让人的人生有了一个污点。

最近，我开始觉得我做错了一个决定。而这个决定真的让我体会到“三思而后行”的真髓。想起来，当时，我会做这个决定时，我真的没有去想太多。纯粹是因为人家的关系而做了这个决定。在这里，我不是说要把这个责任硬硬地推到人家身上去。但是，现在的我真的觉得他们的因素让当时的我做了这样的决定。到了现在，这个错误的决定终于在我的生活上有了它不好的效果。而这个效果真的让我很累又恨我自己。然而，这个东西已经发生了，我也无法改变它。我只好随着它的“后路”来去解决它吧。

守株待兔

2010-01-17T14:21:00.003+08:00

我想很多人都有听过 “ 守株待兔 ” 这个成语的故事。在这个故事中，有一个人因为在某一天看到有一只兔子因撞上一棵大树而当场死去，他就认为如果他每天在同一个地方等的话，他就每天可以得到一只免费的兔子了。就这样，他就一天又一天地等下去。到最后，他一直只有空等一场而已。

在这个故事里，我想它所要带出的意思已经很够明显了吧！所以，我也不用多说了。但是，虽然这个故事那么得深入人心，但是，在现实的生活中，也有不少人也抱着这样的心态来度过他们的一生。我想我也可能是他们的一分子吧！我也不知道为何我有这样的想念，可能因为最近真的发生了很多我预想不到的事情吧。我不禁地想起我自己的过去，现在与未来。

我想我自己真的有一点“ 守株待兔 ” 的想法吧！在过去，我真的每天都在期待某一件的事情会向我招手，只要我坚持地等下去。但是，人生中的每件事都不会想你伸出胜利之手的。它往往还会狠狠地踢你一脚。虽然，它已经做到如此了，但是，我还是抱着最后的希望在等待下去。然而，他真的没有眷顾我，一直想我泼冷水，一直说出让我难堪的话，一直阻碍我的前进，和一直让我要活要死的。可是，我却没有对它有任何的抱怨，因为先人已经把故事流传下来，让后人有一个警惕与借镜。我却还是那么地固执得抱着我的理念去走下步。真的怨不得人！

现在的我可能从中走出来了。没有以前的那么固执，没有以前的那么天真，没有以前的那么勇敢，没有以前的那么执著了。就好像佛经中所提到的“ 阔达 ”，不要去要求一些不属于自己的东西，一切让它随缘吧。不要理会他人的挑衅，不要理会他人的煽风点火，不要理会他人的空穴来风。这样的话，未来的我也可以活过来了。

乞丐

2010-01-16T23:40:00.003+08:00

在回家的路途上，我看到一位乞丐正在向人家乞讨一些钱。当我看到这种事情在我的眼前，我不禁就想起一些老人家常常向我说的话。

他们说：“ 嘉强啊，嘉强，你要好好读书啊！如果没有好好读书的话，你就要像那些乞丐一样，要在路边向人家乞讨钱。你要这样吗？”

在当时，我就马上回答：“我不要，我不要像乞丐他们一样。”。

就在这样的教导下，我对那些乞丐有了一些不好的印象。当我见到他们时，我就会看到我未来失败的一面。同时，我也不时对着他们做出一些不好的举动，例如，远离它们，并且脸上有不雅的表情。但是，当我回想一下他们时，我不禁就会想为什么他们要如此作践自己呢？就在我想了一下，我的脸上就有了一丝丝的忧愁。那是因为当我们看到他们这些乞丐时，我们只会看到他们现在的情况，而没有看到他们背后的伤心与悲哀。

在他们之中，也有可能是曾经是富甲一方的地主，又或者是某上市公司的高级人员。但是，他们为何要沦落到这个地步呢？在我的猜想之下，不然就是因为两个字，知足。当他们有权有势时，他们就会想要比现在更有权有势。所以，他们不惜做了一些不见人的事，又或者做了一些贪心的事起来。当这些事不如他们想象的方向去发展时，他们就会赔了夫人又折兵。不只是坏了自己的事业，也使到自己沦落做乞丐来过生活。这些东西会发生在他们的身上就是因为他们不“知足”。

当我们满足我们现在的一切，我们就不会做出一些贪心的事情。就因为我们去乞求一些不应该属于我们的东西，我们就会失去一些属于我们的东西了。所以，我们就要适时地安分守己，不要好高骛远，要脚踏实地做每一样东西。在另一方面，我们也要适时地自我提升，不停地充实自己，因为我们要比今天的我们更进步。在这里，就说明了凡事都要适当地运用我们的“知足”心。在某些事上，它会帮助你一把，而在某些事上，它就会伤害你一脚。

这样的道理，也就发生在乞丐上。他们一时的错用“知足” 心就害了他们的一生。他们的失败就刚好是我们这一刻的借镜。凡事都有它的两面。千万不要只从事情的一面去看待它们，要用别人看不到的另一面来看待事情的来龙去脉，以便好让你不会遗憾终身。

价值

2010-01-12T23:55:00.004+08:00

真正的价值是用什么东西来衡量的。是不是每一件东西都有它们特别的价值？而特别在感情上，有没有所谓价值的东西埋藏在情侣之间呢？在一段感情的经营当中，双方面都有付出他们各自的心血。而这些心血可以在他们的感情上有一定的作用，使到他们的感情加温！但是，当一段感情的结束，这些有价值的东西会成为他们感情上的绊脚石又或者感情上的留恋呢？

这些有“ 价值 ” 的东西是让人又爱又恨。当你们爱到情浓时，这些“价值”东西可以陪伴你们的左右，成为你们之间的见证。但是，当你们分开时，这些“价值”东西就成为你们之间的恶魔，报复的工具，仇恨的起源和罪恶的来源。所以说， “价值”的东西真的是一个很抽象的东西。

在我的立场上，我对“价值”这个词有了一定的了解。所以，我也开始对它有了一定的防备。希望，你也对它免疫吧。

对的人

2010-01-12T00:01:00.005+08:00

在十多亿人口的国度里，到底我们要如何从中找到我们" 对的人" 呢？是不是在我们的基因中有特定地表明谁可以很容易地找到，又或者是根据个人的幸运呢？我想没有一个人可以给大家一个很肯定的答案，因为他们也不肯定他们所谓对的人真的是“对的人”吗？

如果你真的很幸运得找到一个所谓“对的人”，但是你有多少巴仙肯定你是他的“对的人” . 虽然，有一部分的人，我们无法选择他们是否是我们“对的人”，他们就是我们的父母，我们的亲戚，我们的兄弟姐妹等等..... 他们的出现已经成为你命中注定的点缀与固定的表演者了。所以，我就不要在这方面作出什么的言论了。我就在朋友，情人与你的另一伴方面说吧！

所谓的朋友，情人又或者另一伴都是从我们日常生活所认识的人中的佼佼者。如果他是与你意见相合，性格可以互相配合，那么你与他就可以成为一对“好朋友”了。接下来，如果所谓的“好朋友”是异性而你们又是情投意合的话，那么你们就可以发展下去，成为一对“情侣”。然后，如果这对“情侣”发现他们可以接受对方的一举一动，优缺点和生活习惯的话，那么他们就成为“夫妻”。这些就是一个循环的事情。没有一个人可以从中逃脱，就连一个有钱人与一个平民百姓也没有特别的待遇。但是，在这些所谓的“佼佼者”中，你可以确定他们是你生命中“对的人”吗？我觉得有一小部分的人可以做到，但是，有很多像我的人，就好像在一堆烂泥中拼命地挣扎，对你身边的人一直在怀疑它们是否是我的“对的人”。说到这里，有很多人会因我刚才的话而说我好像很对不起我身边的人。但是，我只是不想把我的付出送给一个深渊里。我想把我所拥有的付出交托给一些“对的人”。我真的希望这个可以发生的。但是，世上那有事从人愿呢？所以，我们要加把劲吧！

给予那些已经找到他们“对的人”，我说声恭喜，再恭喜给你们。你们真的好幸运，因为可以从犹如大海中找到犹如一粒幼沙般的他。所以，你们要好好珍惜他们。。。而我，我就要潜进更深的大海来找到他们。。

发觉

2010-01-10T15:34:00.005+08:00

动物是要通过接触与了解来分辨他是否是你的盟友或者是你的敌人。身为万物之灵的我们，也是一样会有这样的举动。虽然，很多人觉得生为人类的我们是与一般的动物是不一样，那是因为我们比动物更会思考，更会用脑袋，又或者更会沟通，但是，我们却往往会忘记我们人类也曾经是他们的一部分。但是，我们只是比他们“ 幸运 ” 一些，得到大地之母的特别的照顾和眷顾而已。

在我们的日常生活里，我们时常会认识一些各式各样的人，例如，外国人，年轻人，老年人又或者与我们同辈的人。在第一次的见面时，我们很少会与这些刚认识的人一起畅谈天下或者把酒对歌的。在一般的情况，我们会通过接下来的日子来进行对他们进一步的认识与了解，然后才可以判断他或她是否适合做你的朋友，好朋友，知己或者情人。这些所谓人类的东西与动物界的日常习惯却不谋而合。但是，我觉得动物界的生物却比我们人类来得更加简单，因为他们不需要防备一些所谓两面人的出现。在动物世界里，它们的脑海只有敌人或家人，所以，它们就是那么轻松地生活下去。在他们的字典里，如果你是敌人，它们就把你赶走。相反的，如果你是家人，他们会拼死地保护你。但是，在我们的生活里，这些简简单单的东西好像已经从我们原始的生活抽离出来了。所剩下的，往往是人与人的奸诈，人与人的欺骗，人与人的冲突和人与人的厮杀。

所以，在我的角度里看这个世界时，我觉得人类的生活也不比动物界的生活来得更幸福，更快乐，更自由自在。所以说，人是万物之灵吗？我还是觉得人只是生物界里的另一个间接点，一个比动物界还要真实，残忍，乏味的世界而已。

= = ''

2010-01-09T23:52:00.002+08:00

JUST ONE WORD I CAN SAY FROM MY MOUTH , THAT IS

" SAD "

2010

2010-01-01T04:24:00.003+08:00

New YeaR Wish ...

2009-12-31T18:56:00.003+08:00

Today is the last day of the 2009 ... In this year , there are some good and bad thing happened in my life .... Some of them make me happy and some of them make me feel hurt when u recall them ..... However , all these things will be pass with the gone of the 2009 ....

In this new year 2010 , i have a lots of thing need to be done .... they are :

have a good result for the following semester .
have nice memory for the whole 2010 .
have a good body , i hate sick .
all my friends can happy forever ...
can make a lots new friends in the next year .

Bye bye 2009 , welcome 2010 ...

MOon oR SuN ...

2009-12-27T18:44:00.004+08:00

As Usual , Sun is a star which can produce light by using hydrogen gas .... However , Moon just is a planet which can reflect the sunlight to make it bright in front of our eyes .... Hence , we can say that if the sun disappear from our view , then we sure can't see the moon anymore .....

The relationship between the Sun and the moon can be applied on the human relationship . We can't deny that some of us cant survive without the help from other people just like the moon need the sunlight . At the same time , we still can notice that there is a kind of people who always help people without asking any payback from others just like the Sun we have ...

So , what kind of personality you have now ? In my case , i think that i am the Earth planet that cant live without the Sun and the Moon ... I need the sunlight to make my life brighter .... I need the moonlight to guide me a way when i fall into darkness .... On the other hand , the Sun can give me all the wonderful things in my life just like it gives life to the Earth . And the Moon can accompany me when i am alone .....

Hence , i hope that i can be the Perfect Earth rather than this ugly Earth we have .....

无奈

2009-12-26T14:54:00.004+08:00

人的无奈到底是从哪里滋生的？

是人的能力不足？

是人的期望太高？

是人的欲望太大？

有或者是人的无知？

我想这些答案往往只是真实答案的一部分。。。。

因为人是可以为了一些无厘头的原因而做出一些让人无法想象的事情来的。。。。。

所以，

我的无奈是因为什么呢?

而你的又会因为什么呢？

我们会得到同样的原因吗？

真是让人期待。。。。

A New BeGIn ..

2009-12-23T18:25:00.003+08:00

At last , my second year second semester of my three years university course is sitting with me , chatting with me or make suffer for me . As usual , this semester is full with all the lectures , lab and tutorial . This make me feel that i am back to hell again . However , what i can do to avoid it from my life . it becomes one of essential things for my future . Without it , my future will full of hardship and problem . So , i need to work hard on it .....

At this moment , i think that i am that kind of people who has the making decision disorder . I cant make a simple decision on the spot .... I really suffer from it . Now , i need to decide whether i want to recheck some of my result ........ It really disaster for me .....

haiH ... at this time , i cant bother so much on it ... i set a deadline for me , that is before next friday , i need have a exact decision on this topic .... i hope i can make it ....

Give up ?

2009-12-15T01:27:00.002+08:00

After these few days of thinking and consideration , i think i need to give up something from the deep of my heart in order that i can escaped from the black hole of my life ...

It seem a hard decision for me to make because it stays at my heart for fews years . So , i hope this decision can bring a new Light in my future step ...

Thanks to my friends who help me go through these dark period ...

Thank again ......

Real Or Fake ?

2009-12-11T19:52:00.003+08:00

I m A faked Man ?

Do i say some faked words in front of you before ?

Everything i said before is real to my heart ?

Lies are my sincere friend ? Or truths are my enemy ?

想念

2009-12-06T00:37:00.006+08:00

最近，
不知道为什么，
我对你的想念好像从我心中的裂缝中慢慢地走出来了。

我知道我这个的行为，
对你，对我也不好。

所以，我也没有对这个想念有任何的期望。

希望它有一天可以从我心中消失，
但是，
不知道要用多少时间呢？

一天?
一个月？
一年？
十年?
又或者一生一世也不会消失。

希望井

2009-11-27T22:44:00.003+08:00

最近，我去看了一本书。这本书的作者是几米。这本书是我的朋友介绍我看的。虽然我只看了一半而已，可是我对这些句子有很大的启发。。它们就是 ........

“

掉落深井，我大声呼喊，等待救援.............

天黑了，黯然低头，才发现水面满是闪烁的星光。

我总在最深的绝望里，遇见最美丽的惊喜。

从这里，你对这些句子有什么感想呢？

分享一下！！

Shuet Yee"s birthday party ...

2009-11-23T02:01:00.004+08:00

Today is my friend , Shuet yee's birthday party ! My friends and i went to her house to celebrate her birthday . We reached there around 830 pm . However , we were late to attend this party due to some personal reason ( it is my problem , not my friend's problem ) .

When we reached there , we saw a lots of people sitting , eating , chatting or drinking beer there . We just late for half an hours , but her house was full of people and noise . Since this problem happen , we need to search a special and quite place for us to sit , to eat and to chat , too . At last , we found it and had our dinner , too .

After that , we had our chatting session , photograph session and drink beer session . We all had a wonderful moment at there because we can meet someone who we don't meet him or her for long time . Thanks to this party ...

At last , i want to wish my friend happy birthday and hope your dream can come true !!

good luck ..........

心酸

2009-11-10T01:13:00.003+08:00

走不完的长巷 原来也就那麼长

跑不完的操场 原来小成这样

时间的伤 翻云覆雨了什麼

从我手中 夺走了什麼

闭上眼看 十六岁的夕阳 美得像我们一样

边走边唱 天真浪漫勇敢

以为能走到远方

我们曾相爱 想到就心酸

人潮拍打上岸 一波波欢快的浪

校门口老地方 我是等候堤防

牵你的手 人群里慢慢走

我们手中 藏有全宇宙

闭上眼看 最后那颗夕阳

美得像一个遗憾  辉煌哀伤

青春兵荒马乱 我们潦草地离散

明明爱啊 却不懂怎麼办

 让爱强韧不折断

为何生命 不准等人成长

就可以修正过往

我曾拥有你 真叫我心酸

夜静..

2009-11-08T02:34:00.008+08:00

半夜的来临，到底给你怎样的感觉？

对我而言，半夜的来临是一个让我自己好好享受生活的机会.......

每当它的到来，都给我带了一丝丝的宁静，一阵阵的凉风，与一种淡淡的花香......

在这些东西的点缀下，仿佛让我感受到平时无法得到的宁静与快乐.......

就是这样，或者我已经慢慢地爱上了它 .............

就好像爱上了一个不该爱的人...

明知道它是这样的不好，但我还是对它有一种无法释怀的爱慕之心........

明白？

2009-11-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

说了那么多，你真的不明白吗？

你一次次地让我失望与难过！

到底我还要做什么来让你知道？

或者..............

我真的没有办法了 ........

Half Way Gone ...

2009-11-01T00:18:00.004+08:00

Since the first day of my exam week until now , i totally took 2 exams paper , that is TDR I , TDR II , Experimental Design and Pengurusan Persatuan . I still left 4 more paperS to sit , that is Biochemistry , Microbial genetics , Biochemistry practical and Computer .

However , i have a lot of activity after the exam . I plan to go Genting , Alor setar , Ipoh , Penang and maybe Singapore or Johor .... This is the energy for me now ....

HAVE FUN AFTER EXAM !!!!!!!!!!!

Heaven OR Hell ?

2009-10-25T20:47:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the first day of my exam journey . The feeling of mine at this moment is relaxing . I don't know this feeling can happen on me ! Since my result not so good for the last two semesters , i supposed need to work harder and harder compared to other people , no game , no facebook-ing , no animation or no dreaming at there . However , i really feel relaxed on this second . Maybe , i think that i had done all my best to overcome these exam papers or in my deep mind , it says that " no need study hard anymore because you cant change anything although you had done these all things " . I am not sure which of there two thinking is dominating my mind now , but i really sure that i really not think that exam is a HELL to me , it may become a small step to me to enter the HEAVEN . This all things has its own possibility to occur .

For me , i think that i still can handle my own destiny .......

Let's go !!!!!

Tired...

2009-10-18T21:08:00.003+08:00

I really feel tired about what had i done for this long time . If everyone i knew asked my help , i will help them with all my strength because they are my friends , my beloved family members or someone that i don't know them . I think that this is a compulsory job for me to do that since they asked for my help .

When i was standard 1 , i seldom get the love or something that relavant with this because i am the elder son in the family. The main role of my duty is to take care my brothers and do my thing in my effort . I still can remember the feeling when no ones will ask my feeling include my own parents because they need to take care their job and my little brothers . They never ask me about anything on me . This is bcause they think that i can handle it well due to i am the elder . At this situation , i can understand them .

However , i still have 1 people that really care on me , that is my grandfather . Every moment that i stay with him , i still recall back although it happenned when i was 5 years old at that time . For example , every time i went to his house , he sure will bring me to buy anything that i want or ask me anything include my academic result , my friend or anything . This make me felt warm and love . I really have a wonderfull memory on that moment . However , when i was standard 6 , my grandfather suddenly passed away .When i knew about it , i started to ask myself about why i don't spend my time with him . Everytime , my mum asked me to go my grandfather's house , i rejected her because i felt bored when i at there . I rather stay at home and play my Play station better than go there . I really hated me because i make a stupid mistake that make me felt regret and guity for my whole life .

After this thing happenned on me , i started to scare to lost anything from me . Hence , i will do all my best to retain my family relation , friendship or others . I started to put me in the second place in my heart , the first place always will be the person who i knew . This action last for about 10 years . I really felt tired and no more deermination to continue it now . I really want to stop it ....... let stop it for now ......

Good bye the old of me !!!!! Welcome the new of me !!!!!!

2012

2009-10-18T15:56:00.004+08:00

預言一

馬雅的預言

「地球並非人類所有，人類卻是屬於地球所有！」

根據馬雅以上預言，我們生存的地球，已經是在第５個太陽紀，目前為止，地球經已經歷了四個太陽紀，而在每一個紀結束的時候，都會上演一幕又一幕驚心動魄的毀滅劇情。

第一個太陽紀是馬特拉克堤利 MATLACTIL ART，最後被一場洪水所纖滅，另一個說法就是人所共知挪亞的洪水。

第二個太陽紀就是伊厄科特爾 Ehecatl，被風蛇吹得四散雕零，最後亦走上滅亡之路。

第三個太陽紀是扥雷奎雅維洛 Tleyquiyahuillo，則是因天降火而步向滅絕之路，這就是古代核子戰爭。

第四個太陽紀則是宗德里里克 Tzontlilic，也是被火雨肆虐，引發大地顛覆亦逃不過滅亡。

馬雅預言亦表示，從第一到第四個太陽紀的末期，地球同樣陷入空前大混亂之中，而且往往在一連串慘不忍賭的悲劇下滅亡，在地球滅絕之前，一定會先發出警告，提醒人類。而馬雅預言的最後一章，大多數是年代的紀錄，而且這些年代紀錄尤如串連好一樣，全部都在第五太陽紀時宣告終結，因此，馬雅預言地球將在第五太陽紀走向完全滅亡的結局。當第五太陽紀結束時，太陽將會消失，地球發生搖晃的大劇變，根據預言記錄，太陽紀亦只有五個循環，一但太陽經歷過５次死亡，地球便會毀滅，而第五太陽紀始於紀元３１１３年，歷經馬雅大周期５１２５年後，迎向最終點。以現今西曆對照這個終結日子，將會是西元２０１２年１２月２２日的前後。

預言二

西藏憎侶的未日預告

能預知未來在西藏寺院裡並不是甚麼新鮮事，幾千年來，它一直是西藏文化的精神活動之一，而最近幾位從西藏寺院歸來的印度遊客，在當地瞭解到的信息，著實使人震驚及引人入勝。這些遊客說，能預知未來的藏僧看到，目前世界正在進行自我毀滅，但他們同時也看到，世界並不會被毀壞。

西藏僧人說，從現在到2012年間，世界各個超級大國將繼續參與地方戰爭，恐怖主義和隱蔽的戰爭將會是主要問題。2010年左右，世界政治將發生某些變化，各大國將威脅要互相毀壞。2010年到2012年間，全世界將變得極端化，並且為末日做準備，繁多的政治交涉亦不會有一點進展。2012年，世界將進入一次全面破壞性的核戰爭，那時有一件卓越的事件將會發生。超自然的神力量將作出干預，所以世界將不會在那時自我毀滅。與此同時，僧人們還表示，2012 年後，人類將會明白，科學和技術最前瞻是在精神靈性區域，而並非物質的物理和化學。此後，技術將轉到另外一個方向發展。人們將學會精神的精華，同時也領悟到身體與靈魂的關係、也明白輪迴和我們相互之間事實上存在聯繫並都是「上帝」的一部分。

如果以科學解釋僧人的預言，顯然有地球以外的力量在觀察著我們走的每一步，在2012年他們將會出現並拯救世界於自毀。僧人們更表示，在印度和中國發生的不明飛行物（UFO）事件時，是神正在觀察著我們所有人，人類不能也不會被批准大幅度地改變未來。雖然每個人目前生活中的「業」（Karma）可能在某種程度上改變其未來的生活，但要大幅度地改變未來是不可能和不被允許的。

在印度和中國，UFO出沒事件增加了好幾倍，許多人認為外星人與中國和印度政府都曾有接觸，近來UFO頻繁活動在那些致力發展核武器的國家上。他們將會以不使我們驚嚇的形式顯露自己，他們只會在必需的情況下才會顯露自己。隨我們的科學技術進步，我們注定會看到並與他們接觸的。最後，僧侶表示地球是被保佑的，我們只是不知道而已，將來大家將意識到外力是如何拯救我們。

預言三

科學家的未日預測

一群地理學家、天體物理學家和電腦科學家聯合進行研究，發現2012年地球和太陽的磁極將同時發生逆轉，而上一次發生同樣的事件是在數千萬年前恐龍滅亡的年代。印度日報報導，海德拉巴德的一家公司內的研究人員預言2012年將發生磁極逆轉，意味著地球磁場的北極和南極發生對調，在這個過程中地球將經歷一段沒有磁場的狀態。同樣的事情在人類歷史上並沒有記載，所以只能通過電腦模擬推測其影響。根據海德拉巴德模型，當地球和太陽的磁場在轉換，除了可以造成電力失效和候鳥失去辨別方向的能力外，還有其他非常嚴重的後果，包括人類和所有動物的免疫系統將會明顯削弱，而地殼變動會有更頻繁的火山、更劇烈的地質構造運動，造成地震和山體滑坡，還有磁場減弱宇宙射線以倍數激增，放射出來的污染會引發更多癌症出現。除了對地面造成影響，天空的小行星可能會更容易接近地球，地球的重力場亦會發生變化。把以上樣樣加在一起，不難發現2012年地球文明將受到威脅，科學家還猜測類似的事件在遙遠的過去也曾在火星發生。

預言四

火星小孩的預言

早前，歐洲和美國發射的探測器先後登上火星，燃起了人們在火星上尋找生命痕跡的熱情，此時俄羅斯媒體更披露了一個驚人的秘密。據俄羅斯《真理報》報道，俄羅斯伏爾加格勒北部一名年僅7歲的小男孩竟然自稱來自火星，而且具有令人驚歎的天賦和不尋常的才能。

據報，這個名叫波力斯卡的男孩來自一個神秘的地方———火星，長途跋涉來到俄羅斯伏爾加格勒北部充滿神秘色彩的麥德韋德茨卡亞格裡亞達地區。江南時報報道，當地一位目擊者透露，不久前，在一個寂靜夜深的晚上，野外營地的人在空地上圍著火堆聊天暢談，突然，年僅7歲的波力斯卡躬身站起大聲呼喚，引起在場人士的注意，所有人都注目地看著他。目擊者繼說：「原來，他想要告訴大家火星上的生活，以及火星上的居民，飛往地球的傳奇經歷。」當時，現場陷入了一片沉寂。更令人匪夷所思的是，這個男孩甚至繪聲繪色地提到人類古老傳說中，沉入印度洋海底的神秘大陸「利莫裡亞」，火星小男孩還稱，他從火星抵達地球時恰好在那裡登陸，對那裡的生活瞭如指掌。

更驚人的發現，這個神秘男孩至少具有兩個與眾不同的特點。首先，他擁有異乎尋常的豐富知識，智力明顯高於一個普通7歲兒童的水平。「利莫裡亞」是至少80 萬年前傳說中的神秘國家，莫說是孩子，就連大學教授也並非人人都知道，而他卻能詳細地講述這個古老國家的歷史、文明及其居民的生活。第二點是，波力斯卡具有令人刮目相看的語言表達能力，他精通各種專業術語，甚至熟悉火星和地球的歷史。另一位目擊者說：「我認為，這個孩子在與我們分享他前世的個人記憶，而並非胡編亂造亂說一通。」

據報道，神秘的波力斯卡生於1996年1月11日，在俄羅斯沃爾茲斯基鎮一個偏遠的鄉村醫院出生。波力斯卡的父母看上去都是樸實、心地善良的普通人。他的母親娜德茲達是一家公共醫院的皮膚科醫生，父親是一位退役軍官。娜德茲達回憶說，男孩出生15天後，竟然能自己抬起頭。更令人驚訝的是，他一歲半時就已經能夠讀懂報紙上的大標題，2歲之後，波力斯卡已經有超常的記憶力，以及令人難以置信的掌握新知識能力。然而，他的父母很快便發現，孩子以一種獨特的方式— 從某個神秘的國度—獲取信息。

在娜德茲達的回憶裡，從來沒有人教過他那些東西，但他有時會侃侃而談那些不著邊際的事，最喜歡就是談論火星、行星系、遙遠的文明，令人難以置信。自從2歲開始，男孩每天像唸經一樣談論宇宙、其他世界無窮無盡的故事和漫無邊際的天空。從那時起，波力斯卡不斷地對父母說，他以前生活在火星上，當時，火星是有人居住的，由於發生了一場毀滅性的大災難，導致大氣層消失殆盡，因此，火星上的居民現在不得不生活在地下城裡。之後，他經常出於貿易和其他研究目的走訪地球，而且他是獨自一人駕駛太空船呢。

波力斯卡透露，這一切都發生在利莫裡亞文明興盛的時期。那時候，他在利莫裡亞有一個好朋友，但這位朋友就死在他的眼前。「當時，地球上發生了一次大災難，一片巨大的大陸被暴風雨般的海水吞沒。突然，有一塊巨大的岩石砸到一座建築上，我的朋友正好在那裡，我根本來不及去救他。」男孩生動地描述了利莫裡亞消失的整個畫面，就像發生在昨天。

波力斯卡說，他們的太空船從火星起飛到登陸地球幾乎在瞬間完成，此外，他拿出一支粉筆在黑板上畫了一個圓形的物體。他說：「我們的太空船由6層構成，外層佔25%，由堅固的金屬構成，第二層佔30%，由類似橡膠的物質構成，第三層佔30%，同樣金屬，至於最後一層只有4%，是由特殊的磁材料製成的。如果我們給這個磁層充滿能量，那麼太空船可以任意飛往宇宙任何地方。」波力斯卡又表示，行星復興的時候正來臨了，更多的火星人會在地球上出生。地球上將會有大事情發生，這些即將降生的火星人很重要，他們可以幫助地球人對付這些大災難。然後，他煞有介事地預測著，2009年地球上的一個大陸將要發生第一次大災難，第二次更具毀滅性的災難將在2012年發生。

( Obtained from www.plus28.com)

Judgement day ....

2009-10-15T00:13:00.004+08:00

This is the timetable of my Final Exam .... I will start to take the exam from the beginning of the exam week until the end of the exam week . It seem a hell for me ....

26/10: TDR I
28/10: TDR II
29/10: Bometry and Experimental Design
31/10: Kursus Pengurusan Persatuan I
03/11: Biochemstry ( disaster )
05/11: Microbial genetics ( not easy paper although 2 units only )
11/11: Biochemistry practical I
12/11: Computer application on science and Technology ( Never Understand it )

How is it ? it seem nice to all of you . However , for me , it look like disaster because all the tough subjects are put within a week time . It make me no time to read more ... So , i need to start now ..

Ganbateh ..

国大中秋 - Pesta TingLung

2009-10-04T00:02:00.007+08:00

I just went back From stage performance of Pesta Tinglung UKM . After finish watching the stage performance , i found that it gave me a lots of feelings and lessons . The feelings that i never think about at all for long time ago .

First at all , we need to love our own culture although we live at modern world now . The culture of our own races like Hokkien , Hakka or TeowChew need to be inherited from one generation to generation . If we don't do that , these cultures will be disappeared forever without any signs of leaving . As a result , we lose our own identity , our own root . Thus , what we need to do is to keep on remind the new generation to recognize their own culture . For example , the new generation supposed to learn to speak in Hakka , Hokkien and Teowchew and at the same time , they need to keep on practicing our culture in order to keep these all language still alive in our world .

On the other hand , we need to speak or do the correct thing in a correct time and situation . We cant neglect something in order to keep our face . There are some cases where if you don't make a correct decision like forgive people or tell people something , you would fell regret when that particular people is not available for you to do that . Hence , for those who quarrel with your family , friends or somebody else , please forgive each other by saying a word " sorry " . Then , it will make a huge change on your life or your future .

lastly , the communication method we using now need to be changed for our own benefit . For now days , the technology we have now make the communication method we used changed from a traditional way to a digital way . This make less contact among the people . Since the communnication is important for a socialize animal like us , therefore it will bring a lots problem to us . For example , there is less understanding between parents and children , there is some people can't express their own feeling to other people or there is a misunderstanding between different races in certain country . These all things come from the wrong communication method we used now . Hence , try to communicate with people face-to-face , talk with people by sharing experience or just send some regard to those people you seldom talk to them . This make a different .

Thus , these are some my feelings on this stage performance . Hope they can a better for next year ... Gambateh ....

MOon 月亮

2009-10-02T23:22:00.008+08:00

Tomorrow is the moon cake festival . Almost all of my friends go to house to celebrate this festival with family . However , for me , i don't go back to my home although my house quite near from my Bangi house ( just half an hours journey ) . Hence , my friends always ask me the reason for this action . Then , i will tell them ," my family don't celebrate this festival for long time " . At this moment , i started to refresh back my memory when i was young ( my primary school period ) .

The reason for me to celebrate the moon cake festival because my grandfather . For your information , my grandfather really love me so much among all the grandson and grand-daughter he had . Hence , every time i went to my grand-father's house to celebrate moon cake festival , i really enjoy it . We all would sit together and chat for anything while we had the foods in front of us . We would light up the candle , burn the " Ting Long " , and walk around with friends . How a wonderful experience for me at that time .

However , this all things were gone when my grandfather passed away when i was Standard Six . All the celebration was stop and my family never celebrate it for the following years . Hence , i am not interested on this festival anymore . i just have an impression that this day is a day which i can eat moon cake only , then other thing seem no related with me .

But , these are my own opinion and feeling on MOON CAKE FESTIVAL . You all don't bother on it . So , for those who celebrate the moon cake festival , HAPPY MOON CAKE FESTIVAL to you all .

Gathering ....

2009-09-24T15:02:00.004+08:00

Yesterday , our "Cui Shui Group " had a gathering since 6 months ago . As usual , we all share our story , problem , current status ( have bf or gf ) and more . Our gathering started at 6pm until 11.30pm although we had planned to leave at 10.30 pm due to we all chat until forget the time .

At this gathering , we started to share the new semester' case . It looks like all of us busy on our own thing , like i busy on pesta konvo and other activity , kkit busy on "升学－Shen Xue " , waikuan busy on "佛光-fo guang＂，meimay busy on " 天籁之音-tian lai zhi ying " and yoonming busy on his song creating and other activity . It seem that our of us started to have a busy study environment since this semester . After that , we started to talk our Form 6 life again , like when the spot check , what we had done , when the assembly going on , what we had done , the special case when Pn chan taught us chemistry and more . All these memory make us feel that want to go back our Form 6 life .

Beside this , we still chat on other thing . Due to these thing are secret , only the members can get know on it . Hence , you all cant know it . If you want to know it , go to apply the membership from us .....

After the gathering , we need to wait for another holiday or other occasion to have a meet again . However , i really enjoy this meeting because i really can have a short-termed relax on that moment because i share my experience with them . Really a wonderful moment .

Our Friendship last Forever ......

LAzy ...

2009-09-15T21:49:00.002+08:00

Since i almost finished my all mid semester exams except the TDR 1 exam , therefore i don't have any mood to study my books . Although i put my book in front of my eyes or on the table , i rather go to Facebook-ing or watch drama series than go to read about the book . This maybe due to i too suffered for past few weeks ago . I really tired on this ....

i hope the coming holiday can make me return back to original state .....

VaLUe oF Me ..

2009-09-06T19:05:00.003+08:00

There is a saying states that when you are alone in your room or a particular situation , you will start to think about some extraordinary things . I totally agreed on it . Just now , i am alone in my house for about 2 hours , no ones talk to me , no ones play with me and on ones can't sense my presence in my house because all of them so tired due to the Biometry exam in the morning , so they all go for a deep sleep . Just left me alone in the living room . Although i am also tired , however i can't have a sleep now and the same thing goes for past few days ago because i started to think about one thing , that is the VALUE OF ME ...

What is the value or role of me in this time ?
Is that being a good son or elder brother in my family ?
Being a never grown up before young man in front of my friends ?
Being a course-mate who loves to read books ?
Being a shadow in front of your eyes or my eyes ?
Or lastly , being a noob or doll in front of the public ?
These all values really are mine ?
Are these values really accompany me all the time ?
Or are they just a false skin in front of my true face ?
I really don't know them well .....

For example , last night i started to think about the impression of mine in front of my dear friends . Are they really make friend with me ? Or just want to take something from me ? I knew that this is not good for me to think like that . But , i really can't stop my mind . I hope i can get a good answer for next few days ....

Furthermore , why i need to hold that post if i really don't work hard for it ? Do i really greedy on the power or status ? Should i left it pass across my hand ? I think i should let it be because i really don't want this kind of case happen at me . I hate this kind of thing in my memory . It really is nightmare or disaster in my life ..... I think this question has its own answer from this moment now on .....

Other questions still on the progress . When these all question settle in one day , then i will know the value or role of me in this time .

MID SEM ...

2009-09-02T23:32:00.006+08:00

Recently , i busy on my mid semester exams that started from last wednesday until next thursday night . For your information , i need to sit for 5 exams for this semester , that is :

TDR 1
Biochemistry
Biometry & Experimental design
Microbial genetics
Computer programming C

These all subjects make me exhausted because there is a a lots of notes and books need to be read before you can sit for the exam , especially for biochemistry and biometry & experimental design . For example , in the biochemistry paper , i need to study for two chapters , that is enzyme and gluconeogenesis . In the enzyme part , i need to learn to plot at least 4 types of graph which include Linewaever-Burk plot , Eadie-Hoftee plot , Hanes-Woolf plot and Michaelis-Menten plot . Beside that , i also need to understand the derivation of the formulae for the competitive inhibitor , non-competitive inhibitor and uncompetitive inhibitor . On the other hand , i have to memorize the cycle of the gluconeogenesis include it regulation processes , reaction pathway and more .

For other subjects , more and more things need to be memorized and understood . So , i have to busy all the time until i finish my final exams that maybe started from 26 October 2009 and end at 12 November 2009 .... Hope i can pass through it ........

The ENd ..

2009-08-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

Finally , Pesta Konvokesyen ke -37 in my university come to the end yesterday ....

I really want to thank all my partner because you all give me a lots of good memory from April 09 until August 09 ...

They are :

Along
Ah bon
Ah boon
4-flat
shah
Nor
Ila
all ajkp who i knew

I hope you can also have a good time when working with me for this 4 months ....

Really Sorry to You all ...

2009-08-15T20:19:00.004+08:00

2 weeks ago , i asked you all come to join my team ..........

However , i have to tell you all that i not sure can give you all a certificate for your help in this whole week .....

I really feel very sorry to you all ........

I feel shamed and "pai seh " to ask you all help me to do other activity again due to this case happened on you all .....

Hope you all can forgive me ........

Really a thanks ????

2009-08-14T13:12:00.003+08:00

When some ones put a lot of efforts on some things , then he or she should hear " Thank for your effort " from other partner . If they should say it with their TRUE heart . Then , the "thank you " will be the best present for that person ........

However , if they just say it due to the environmental pressure , then it just a fake action in fronts of that people . On the other hand , it will hurt that people deeply .....

If really this case happen on you , then how would you look on it ? Hence , when you do anything on other people , please think before it come out from your mouth ... This is because you may get it back when you do work with other people ... I really believe it ...... There is a cycle in this world , just the TIME make a decision whether it want to come early or late .... Just wait it .....

Appreciate ....

2009-08-10T22:21:00.004+08:00

Do we need to show out what we have done for the activity or something else ?

Cant we do the thing without anyone knows about i t ?

Do we need to tell other people that i am doing work ?

Do they need to so particular on it ?

Why they just cant let it be ?

Recently , these all questions always appear in my mind . These questions give me a lots of problems when i want to decide whether want to join or not from now on . This is because i am that kind of person who does not like people keep on asking me the progress of the activity . If you let me in-charge on one activity , then you must believe me totally . If not , i will not work in full strength or may not help you do anything anymore next time due to i will no mood or force to do it again ........

This is me !

Happy Birthday

2009-08-07T21:22:00.003+08:00

Sorry for being so late to wish you " Happy Birthday , SUE WEN "

At here ,

i want to wish you will happy all the way during this whole life !

I wish you will get a "DIN" when you finish your study , so do i !

I wish you will accompany with the people who love you so deep !

I wish you can enjoy your university life better than this moment !

Lastly , i say " Happy Birthday to you ! "

Flying ....

2009-08-03T18:56:00.003+08:00

Yesterday , i went for a farewell party of my Secondary School Friend , Mun Seng Kit ( Cedric ) .

Without any of signs , i knew him for 9 years since we were fresh student at SMK Jalan San Peng ( now called SMK Dato' Onn ) . Then , we become Perfect together in the school for 5 years , join Interact Club , Chinese Language Society , Sidang Redeksi and more . Suddenly , i get knew that he need to fly to USA to further his Degree Study . At the first second , i started to feel sad because I need to separate from him in many miles away although we live in a high-tech world now ( chat with MSN or send Email ) . However , what can do now , i just left is to pray for him and wish him have a good life in USA .

Now , he need to learn a totally new culture from his own culture . However, with the help of his sisters , i think he can adapt into a new life easily .... All the best to him ....

We are Friends FOREVER ...............

Respect

2009-07-23T15:39:00.001+08:00

Two days ago , there was a sad memory for me to start my whole day lecture class from 8 am to 2 pm . This is the story .....

When we planned to go out from our house , our neighbor scold us about the way of our car parked has blocked someone's car out from his house . However , the way they parked their car also in the wrong manner . They told us that why we don't respect people . At the same time , they also said that we are the student , so we need to follow the rule . At that moment , since we rush for our class, hence we don't bother it so much .

However , when we think it back , then we noticed that the way they talked is so rude because they scold us so loud and what is the meaning of " you all are students right , so you all need to follow the rule " . This sentence means that one of the responsibility of student is to follow the rule , and how about them ? They no need follow it since there are some cars block our way out from our house . Why we don't bother it because we knew that there is few parking site . So , we just let it be . If we want to talk about it , then all the neighbor will scold each other .... Why make this thing happen ?

Although we make a mistake at there , however the way they parked the car also got mistake . Both of us got mistake , too . Why they don't think that they have responsibility on it ? Maybe they thought that they are the old resident here , then they are more powerfully than us . So , we need to follow their rule ? Don't think so much !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weakness ...

2009-07-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

Started from the 1st day i have a new friend , i noticed that i have a huge weakness within my mind that i can't stand on it , that is i seldom go to understand 1 people in detail .This is because one of my best friends told me that i seldom care about people by asking their condition , problem that they faced to or the favorite thing of my friends . This make them feel that i don't want make friend with them or not sincere with them anymore .......

For this moment , i still don't understand why i behave like that ! I always ask myself why i don't spend some time to understand well my friends . Every time , i don't get the answer from this question . This make me feel that the incredible of our mind . This is because we can't control our mind to act as what we like . When it want to do that , then you can't do like this . This is why a lots people commit suicide or murder people . Since they can't stand the pressure or the problem they faced to , then they let their their mind to control them . Hence , a lots of crime cases happen in this world now ....

That is why everyone in this world has it own logic thinking or the way that they prefer to act . So , do i need to take out my weakness from me or i just let it be ?

Really can make it ??

2009-07-07T00:34:00.007+08:00

Today is the first day of second year university . I supposed to be very happy on it because i can meet all my university friends . However , due to the stupid course timetable and the lab timetable , all this thing make me feel disappointed on the management of the faculty of mine . i don't know what they done on it . For example , there were 3 classes planned to have class at the same classroom and time . This make some lecturer angry on it .What can we do ? Just wait , and wait until they settle it as soon as possible . Hope so ........

Beside this , i also need to settle the problem of the pesta konvo . This stupid program make me i want to die soon because no ones can do thing for me except my TTK . All hope me can handle this although i am the first time to handle this program . They just send me a sms to ask me do that , do this , call her o him . All these things happen in this busy first week of second year . i totally fell regret to join this pesta Konvo ......

After few days later , i maybe need to handle the new junior thing by arranging the meeting , the annual dinner and the senior - junior system . All thing need to be done before August ..... It make me feel that want to commit suicide ......

Hence, this is all i need to do on this two months of my Second year . Hope i can do it in good way without affecting my result .....

Lembing Trip .....

2009-07-06T19:57:00.008+08:00

How a disaster for me . For these three days , i just have about 8 hours sleep in total . However ,it gives me a good memory for me before i enter my Second Year university life ....

AS usual , we gathered at Puduraya around 10 am and went into bus around 1030 am . After abourt 3 hours and 30 minutes journey , we reached at Kuantan . Then , we called CHOON KIT to fetch us to have a lunch . AFter that , we went for a bowling session . WIthin this 2 hours , we hold a competition among us . However , due to some problems from the management , this competition can't be suscessed . At 6 pm , we went to Teluk Chempadak ( TC ) . We walked along the beach and had a photo session at there . Then , we went for dinner and back to Sungai Lembing to check in the room . After taking bath , we played mahjong and chat with each other . At 2.00 am , we took a sleep .

At 430 am , we woke up and prepared ourself for the next activity , searching Rainbow waterfall . After 1 hour car driving and 30 minutes walking , we reached at Rainbow waterfall . There is a good place with a wonderfull view and nice air to breathe . We played with water while waiting for the appearance of the Rainbow . Luckily , we finally can see the Rainbow in front of our eye . At 11 am , we walked back to town . However , in the middle of the journey , the sky started to cry . So , we walked in the forest with the body was wet . When we reached the place where we put the car , the sky smile to us by giving a good weather to us . But , the sky started to cry again when we on the half way back to town . All my friends very enjoy this situation by giving a big smile to me when i took photo for them inside the car . After that , we had a lunch in CHOON KIT' antie house and then we went to kuantan again to have our bowling session and watch ICE AGE 3 . Then , we went to TC Mcdonald to have our dinner and back to Sungai Lembing to take a rest because we had a climbing session tomorrow .

At 530 am , we woke up and prepared ourself for the climbing session . we took around 30 minutes to reach the Lembing Hill . we all exhausted when finished the climbing ( i almost can't climb the hill because i don't have breakfast before the climbing session started ) . Due to the bad weather , we can't see the sunrise . After having the breakfast , we went to clean our thing for the preparation back to KL . At 1230 pm , we all sat in the bus and preapered to back .

At 0400 pm , we walked at Titiwangsa LRT station .

Trip again ...

2009-07-01T01:03:00.003+08:00

Another 9 hours later , i will on the journey to the Kuantan . If i not mistaken , this is the second time i go to travel with my university friends . The First trip that we went for is Penang . For that trip , we have a good memory because we just all time went for meals and drinks . I still remember i have around 9 or 10 drinks for a whole day exclude the normal water i drunk in . How terrible the experience , but i still enjoy it ...

For this kuantan trip , i have a high expectation on it because i can take a look on the legendary Rainbow waterfall and the Lembing hill . I hope that i can watch a lot of rainbow in front of my eye because my friend said that not every time you go there , you sure can watch it . This phenomena must depend on your luck and the weather on that area .....

Lastly , all the best to my Kuantan Trip . After that , i will post all the beatifull photo on this blog .... Wait for it .....

Holiday

2009-06-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

For this moment , I finally can have a true holiday for my First year study in university . For those who really not in touch with me for a long time , sure you all can’t understand what I said here . Normally , I shall have a two months holiday since this May 09 . However , I had joined Pesta Konvo this year , so , I need to stay at University to work for free . I will call a lot of companies to ask for sponsorship of mineral water and hamper as my daily job in the Office .

Recently , Pesta Konvo organized a activity called Pertandingan Debat Piala TNC . This was a three days activity and involved 22 schools took part in the competition . As usual , as a member of Sekretariat Tugas – Tugas khas dan Kebajikan , we need to prepare food and drinks for this three days activity . In these three days , I need to wake up at 6am and work for 8-9 hours . I really suffer a lot within these three days . Luckily , I passed all these work and I can have nice holiday on my house .

In this two weeks holiday , I will watch movie , animation and drama in the whole days . This is because I need to work hard for next semester in order to get a good pointer when I graduate from this university . Gambateh to me and enjoy this two weeks holiday .

Konvo 1 day Trip

2009-06-14T11:01:00.003+08:00

As usual , this activity is one of the activities for the Pesta Konvo . Today , we need to go to Gunung Ledang , Johor and Malacca .

Gunung Ledang Trip :

This time , my friends and i need to wake up at 3.30am because we need to depart to Gunung Ledang at 4.30 am . Since the time is too rush , i decided to have nap in the evening and don't sleep at night . At 4.30 am , all three buses started to go to Gunung ledang , Johor . During the journey , my friends and i sleep all the ties in the bus , so we skip the morning breaskfast . When we reached at Gunung Ledang , Johor at around 8 am , the organiser started the 1st game , that is explore race game . OMG , how can i join this game without my breakfast because i need to climb the hill and run all the time . Hence , i feel exhausted during this game . However , our team still become 1st Runner-up for this game . After that , we went for the second game , that is searching sweets in the particular area . Unlucky , our team got the fourt place although the amount of sweets we got was only less 1 sweets than the 2nd Runner-up . After these games finished , we went to the water game in the river . The water totally freezes my legs and hands . And my friends wnet for a spa in the river . At 1pm , we supposed have our lunch , but due to some problem , we had our lunch at Kawasan Rehat Toll at 2.30pm . So , hungry man ......

Malacca trip :

At 3pm , we started to go to Malacca . When we reached there , we went to Dataran Pahlawan to have our activity , like shopping , having ice-cream , watchng people drawing and more . At 6.30 pm , we went to Newton Food court to have our dinner . After that , we went ot Menara TAming sari there to have the night view of Malacca . At 9pm , we went back to UKM . At 10.45 pm , we reached at UKM .

This is the 1 day trip of Pesta Konvo .

Sem 2 Result ....

2009-06-12T20:24:00.003+08:00

Only one word i can say for my result , that is poor and disappointed on it . When i open the UKM website , i really felt nervous and excited . However , i fell sad after looking on it . I really got a bad result for my Chemistry subject .

How can this thing happen on me ?

How far the distance between my dream and reality ?

What can i do ?

Really want to Follow the order that i get from other people ?

Can i become myself in University ?

* All this will become some questions for me to figure out for next two weeks holiday before i can go Kuantan trip with a happy Heart .

DReam .....

2009-06-08T18:20:00.004+08:00

Today , i had 2 mystery dreams when i took a nap . In the dream , i had a nap , too . Suddenly , someone knocked my door , then i woke up and went to open the door . When i open the door , i saw 2 boys and a girl in front of my eyes . I asked them the reason why they knocked my door . They answered me that Today is Halloween day and spray the cream on my face . I felt angry on them and scold them , too . However , they don't fell anything embarrassment when i started to scold them . And then , they started to check my room and make the clothes fall on the floor . Then , i said that these clothes not belongs to me , so you all can do that .They felt shocked . After that , i make another dream again .

In these second dream , i took a nap , too . However , i woke up in a sudden and i can't move my body . I saw i was sleeping on the bed. To my horror , i was watching LEOW KHAR KEONG sleep on the bed . The scene make me fell chill . At that moment , i begin to ask me wake up from the nap . However , the SLEEPING of me can't wake up . Then , the WATCHING of me continue scream nap shout to make me wake up . This process was stopped when i heard my alarm . When i woke up , i found that the time was 2.41pm although i set the alarm at 2.30 pm . Why i cant heard the 2.30 pm alarm ??? I usually can hear the no matter how deep sleep on that moment !!!

These two dreams make me fell strange !! How about you ???

The last day of May 09

2009-05-31T19:20:00.003+08:00

Without any signs , i need to stay into June of 2009 after today ! i think that i don't do much things for these five months in 2009 . I just need to study , do activities , gathering , enjoy my Chinese New Year , go out with University or secondary or Form 6 friends and had my 1st Year exam at April . That all had i done for this five months . I don't do anything which is meaningful to me , my family or the society . I felt that i wasted my time .

Hence , i have to start a new plan for the next SEVEN month of 2009 . If not , i will feel regret for this .

Any good Suggestion from you all ????

Really FrienD exist ????

2009-05-23T17:12:00.004+08:00

Through these day , i started to hesitate about the existence Of a true friendship in Real World . Since the first day i make new friends , i easily thought that person as my good friend although i just knew him or her for 2 or 3 hours ago . This situation occur due to the personality of mine . Since i enter the primary school , i lack of confidence to make a new friend , therefore when someone come to approach me and make friend with me , i really fell happy and touched .

However , recently i started to fell doubt about the term of " FRIEND " . The reason for it ,i fell sorry as i can't tell you here because the answer are so sensitive to say ( i think the word " write " is more suitable here ) here . I just return back to my original state , Blur .......................... i don't know what is IT ? What kind of appearance of IT ? What are the conditions for me to consider my FRIEND as FRIEND ?

I think i will try to figure it out as soon as possible because i don't hurt the person who i care most , and lastly i don't hurt me , too .

Cui Sui Group gathering

2009-05-17T01:17:00.004+08:00

I think that this is the first time for me to meet some of our group member since october 08 . These people are Kkit-kun and meimay-chan . Yming-kun , i can meet him 3 times a week because we attend the same class at Bangi Campus and Waikuan-chan , i don't meet her since the CNY gathering .

For this gathering , we first planned to have our dinner and chatting session at FREE & EASY . However , we found that tis cafer closed ( actually not us , is waikuan found it because she reached on time , sorry to waikuan-chan ) , therefore , we went to SAMOSA Cafeteria . When we settled down , we ordered the meal and started our chatting by asking the recent condition since we don't meet each other for long time .

During the chatting session , we chat about the HAPPY and SAD thing ( For the detail , i can't tell you all here due to it is a high Secret ) . We also exchange our opinion on the topic we discussed there . At the same time , we watched the Badminton Competition between China and Malaysia .

At here , there is a surprise for me , that is they celebrated my birthday with me , although my birthday was pass away ( my Birthday is 4 of May ) . I really very happy and want to say thank you to them to having this birthday party with me . thanks man . . .

After that , we end our gathering by going back home . After that , we started to plan the next gathering on the end of May or June . . . . . .

4D3N Pahang trip

2009-05-11T21:42:00.007+08:00

From 8 May - 11 May 2009 , my friends and i went to Pahang to have our " KURSUS KOMUNIKASI KOPORAT " This seminar was organized by the PUSAT PERKEMBANGAN PELAJAR ( PPP ) and PESTA KONVO . The purpose of the seminar is to improve our communication skill and soft skill .

About the resort i stayed for these days , i can say 1 word to represent my feeling on it , that is " worst " Since the resort at the middle of the forest , therefore there are no air- condition service at there . Because of the hot weather for these days , the resort seem a hell where we all sweating like a dog ..... And , there are just 2 bathroom for 29 boys used for bathing and other purpose .

About the course or the talk given by this seminar , it seem very bored to me because all the talk are so common to me . All seem very familiar compared to the last few seminar that i attended before .

About the outdoor activity , we went to Gua Terang Bulan for a visit . This is the first time for me to enter the cave , I feel very nervous and excited for this trip . These are the photos i took during the journey :

For overall , i think still OK because just the accommodation and the talk are not so good

Then , i need to go for another camp at Sungai Siput , Perak at the end of May . I hope this camp will nor make me fell sad again